I wake up to faint snores next to me, I look over to see Luke's peaceful face. His five-o-clock shadow is showing and his mouth is slightly parted. His lips are slightly pinkish-pale, they look so delicious. I could just kiss them and bite them all day long, but then I remember.
He's my new dad.
I can't be having these fantasies or ideas of "us" anymore. That doesn't exist now that he's married to my mum and "in love" with her.
Why am I even here, lying next to him and desiring him? I should be in my own bed not thinking twice about him.
Oh, but wait, I had a nightmare last night and he offered to make me more comfortable by letting me sleep next to him.
That's right.
Only thing is, I'm sure Luke though I was lying about the nightmare. If only I was.
My father's death was nothing easy. I watched him take his last breath as I screamed for him and the help that never seemed to arrive.
It was late one night,
"daddy, I'm sleepy."
"Come here sweetheart." He gently scoops my 9 year old body up into his arms.
"Did you enjoy the film?" he asks
"Yes!"
Then the fatal sound.
Blood dripped from my clothes and head. I couldn't tell what belonged to me or the body next to mine.
"Daddy??"
Faint wheezes come from the man next to me.
"Daddy it hurts." I hold my head and a place on my leg.
"Jewel.."
Screams and cries erupt from my little body. People rushed to our aid, but what could they have done?
"Yes, a man and his little girl have been shot!!!!" a woman above me screams.
"Don't move, honey." A man beside me says in a soothing voice.
Salty tears flood down my face as I look over to see my father's chest rise and fall one last time. Leaving me alone in this cruel, cold world.
Until this day, I don't know who caused the man I loved the most to leave me. I don't know who left me with a scar on my leg to remind me of the events of that night.
I don't know who took my father away from me, but whoever it was can burn in hell.
"Are you okay?" I hear Luke's husky morning voice.
"Fine, just thinking."
He falls silent as I do, not exchanging another word for the rest of the morning.
BINABASA MO ANG
Daddy issues
Fanfiction{l.r.h} "What was it that caught your attention besides my mum?" "You."
