Weird Girl

Chapter ten: My hour with Astrid

Merida

That was the most awesome thing I had ever done. I certanly couldn't believe I could be able to do such things with my own mind... I was like a teenager Matilda but a lot more awkward, of course.

Whatever, I had to go to school and start being invisible again, don't talk to no one if I don't have to, avoid bathrooms, sitting alone with Punzie in a corner for lunch and hoping Jack wouldn't take her away.

Mum took me to school early, as always. I entered to history class and sat in the back, I hid my face in my schoolbag while my jerk classmates were entering one by one.

Then Hiccup entered, with his auburn hair, big green eyes and beautiful freckles, he caught me watching him and smiled at me as he was blushing and I felt the heat in my face as it was about to explode... I'm so stupid - I thought and hid my face again.

I could swear the clock was slower and almost at the end of the class our teacher had a great idea: Group projects. And I am going to die.

As he was naming the pairs I was begging in my mind please forget me

And he finally mentioned my name... I got paired with... Astrid? like Hiccup ex-girlfriend Astrid? well, fuck

"ugh" she said rolling her eyes and I was like um, hello?  I am right here, thank you.

Hiccup got paired with the sweetest girl at school, Ella and it wasn't fair at all... At the end of the class he rubbed my arm and smiled at me again  with a strange look in his face... was it pity? In the corridor Astrid stood in front of me and I paralized 

"alright, we both know we wouldn't choose each other if we had the chance but we don't so.. come to my house today and luckily we'll finish it as soon as posible" she said all at once I just had time to nod very fast.

Punzie and I sat in a table for lunch and I told her everything that happened and she caressed my hair with her hands and looked at me with her grass green eyes 

"what are you doing" I said putting her hand off my hair "this isn't making anything better. I will die, what if I loose myself? I mean I kind of controled it but what if.."

"what did you kind of  control?" Jack appeared and sat with us 

"nothing" Punzie said instantly "girl stuff" she smiled 

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Later I found myself in my way to Astrid's house, I rang the bell and she answered the door 

"hi" I said "I brought these books so we could have more information about our work." I handed her some book my dad gave me from his library 

"good" she took them and invited me in 

"nice house" I said nerviously 

"thanks, hey can I make you a question?" she said and I blushed 

"I- uhm- sure, I guess" I said 

"why are you so shy, like it's a small school and everyone knows everyone" and that's exactly my fear, i thought 

"it's just social anxiety, nothing to worry about -probaly yes- but I like being alone" 

"do you like Hiccup?" she asked and I opened my eyes like plates 

DOES SHE KNOW?!?

"H-hiccup? he, uhm, he used to date you or n-not? I-i don't know... I don't know him, why would I like someone I don't know?" I  was starting to feel sick and the lights started flickering because of me 

"what? are you alright? what is happening?" she said looking up at the ceiling 

I tried to calm down and closed my eyes and the lights came back to normality but when I opened my eyes everything went dark...

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Note of the author 

okay I know I deserve all the hate because it's almost been a year! I am so so so sorry I lost inspiration completely and I was sure I would never write this story again but it kind of came to me again

I'm really sorry I understand if you don't want to read it anymore but I'll try to update sooner now that I'm on vacations from school 

If you're reading this I love you so much and thanks for keeping with my story even though I am a total disaster <3.