Our Perfect Love [HPL Book 2 - Complete]

Proof # 35: Danger

THUNDER

Sinimulan ko ng ayusin ang mga gusot sa buhay ko, mahirap man pero kinausap ko ng mabuti si Lyn. Halos isang linggo din ang nakalipas bago ko nakausap ng maayos si Lyn, alam ko na palagi n'yang iniiwasan ang mapag-usapan namin ang tungkol sa relasyon namin, pero ngayon ay desidido na ako na tapusin na talaga ito. 

"Let's talk about this some other time." Sabi nito at tatakasan na naman ako pero hinawakan ko ang kamay n'ya para hindi ito maka-alis.

"Alam kong iniiwasan mo ito, pero Lyn, I really think it's time we should talk about this." Sabi ko dito pero pilit nitong tinatanggal ang kamay ko sa pagkakahawak sa kanya. "Lyn, please, ayoko na saktan ka pa lalo, but we really need to end this." 

She froze on her spot, finally... I've said it. 

Tiningnan n'ya ako at nakita ko ang pagpatak ng luha n'ya. This is what I hate the most kapag nakikipag-break ako sa mga nakarelasyon ko noon, pero kay Lyn ako pinaka-nahihirapan. 

"It's because of her, isn't it." Sabi nito at tumango ako sa kanya.

"Lyn, walang kasalanan si Mia dito. Ako ang may kasalanan ng lahat ng 'to." I told her and let go of her hand, "Kung gusto mong magalit, ibunton mong lahat yun sa akin, wag kay Mia." Alam kong ano mang oras ay susugurin n'ya ito, sa lahat ng naging karelasyon ko ay si Lyn lang ang tumagal, at katulad ng nakararami, iniisip din siguro ni Lyn na pang matagalan na ang relasyon namin.

Sinubukan ko, sa tingin ko rin noon ay nakita ko na ang babaeng pwedeng pumalit kay Mia, pero bumalik s'ya, at kasama n'ya ang dalawang tao na makakapagpatunay ng pagmamahalan naming dalawa.

"What did I do wrong?" She asked.

"Nothing, wala kang kasalanan Lyn." I held her on her shoulders and looked into her eyes, "Ako ang may mali, at ayokong lumalim ang pagsasamahan natin kung sa huli ay sasaktan din kita, kung sa huli ay sa kanya pa din ako babalik." I explained to her, "Sana maintindihan mo, Lyn. Mas kailangan ako ni Mia ngayon, lalo na at..." Hindi ko sigurado kung tama ba na sabihin ko kay Lyn ang tungkol sa mga bata.

"But she left you! She broke you! Why are you running back to her?!" She shook of my hands that was holding her and she pushed me, "I was the one who was there when you were so broken! I picked up all the pieces and put you back together! I don't deserve this Xander!" 

I lowered my head and heaved a deep sigh, she's right, she doesn't deserve this.

"You're right, you don't deserve this, you don't deserve me Lyn. You deserve someone much better, someone who would love you more than I could ever love you." I told her.

"No, Xander, you are all I ever wanted." She held my hand trying to change my mind.

I shook my head and remove her hand, "No Lyn, I'm not the guy for you. I know someone will come to you and would cherish you more that anything in the world." I told her, "I'm really sorry, Lyn. I really tried my best, I also thought we could work out, but she's still the one I want." I said to her honestly.

And with that, she fell to her knees and cried in front of me. This was the first time I've seen her so weak, crying like a child. But I had no other choice.

I need to fix everything before I face the most difficult challenge in my life... Fighting for her.

MIA

Sumilip ako sa kwarto ng mga bata at nakita silang natutulog doon, wala silang klase kaya naman nagpapahinga silang dalawa ngayon.

Sa tuwing bumibisita si Thunder sa kanila, nasa kwarto lamang ako at hinahayaan sila na mag-bonding. Hindi ko pwedeng makita si Thunder hangga't nandito si mama, hangga't binabantayan n'ya ang bawat kilos ko.