You make me Suicidal [Naruto]

Ch.11 Life

Flashback 

It was late, I was hoping that I'd get the house to myself and be alone for a while longer while father was out at the bar and doing strange and random women up.

For once maybe I'll be forgotten and be left alone

Please Forget me

Please Forget I exist

Please 

Please

Please

I just want to be left alone

I can't take this much more

so please.......

I don't care if that man never comes home

I'd of rather been sent to an orphanage than deal with his insanity.

At least then I'd of been spared his beat downs and maybe I wouldn't be scared

both physically and mentally

......

Sadly I'm afraid I've obtained no such luck...

Father came home in the middle of the storm,

drenched from head to toe...

I could already smell the sickening odor of Sake coming from his mouth....

He knocked a few empty bottles over allowing them to crash into the cold hard floor.

It didn't occur to him someone could trip or get cut by the shattered glass

He only shrugs and steps over it as he drop's his jacket across the room and kickes off his shoes as they knock over a few more things.

His eyes are glazed over, dead and emotionless, void of any happiness, shame or compassion.

It sends a chill down my spine

Oh God.... why me? why was I born to a father as horrible as this one?

I don't understand

Did I do something wrong?

What did I do to upset him?

Why?

Why does he hate me?

Why doesn't he care I'm his only daughter?

Why won't he treat me like a normal human being?

I'm only a child

I couldn't survive on the streets on my own

A father is supposed to be there for you

A father is supposed to bring you joy

A father is supposed to show you love

A father is supposed to protect you

A father is supposed to teach you

A father is supposed to never do anything harmful towards you