For years I cried

Chapter 2

Five years later.

Five years later and I was proving myself right. I don't need Dimitri in my life, I hadn't seen him since he left and I no longer pined for him like the lost teenage girl I was. I am now a strong mother who manages to cope with an amazing daughter like Elena. Lissa had stuck by my side and helped me raise her with the help of all of our friends, but I'm coping on my own.

I still think about Dimitri, the words in his letter still haunt my dreams but I never let it bring me down, he hasn't shown his face around court since he left for Tasha. But even now I know I wouldn't trust myself if he walked back through the door, how could I trust myself around the person I once loved with all my heart, the man who I share a child with. Not that he knows it, when he left he didn't look back, meaning I didn't get the chance to tell him about Elena, I worry about the day she asks me about her father. But that's in the future.

Right now I'm living near Lissa and working part time as her guardian, most of my time is taken up by looking after Elena. Here at court we have many Guardians that help while I'm off duty but really we need to have a full time guardian for Lissa, she takes main priority seems as though she's the next in line. So that means in the next few days her new guardian will be stepping through our door.

It worries me that he or she won't be as focused to guarding Lissa as I would be if I didn't have a child but I have to have faith in the new guardian, I never know they might surprise me!

And there's also the dreaded monthly trip that queen Tatiana does to see how Lissa is coping with the idea of being queen next year, but I don't need to worry about that like I normally do, it's never bad as think it's going to be. I know Tatiana doesn't like me, my track record of being a trouble maker has already made her mind up that I don't deserve to be the guardian or best friend of the last living Dragomir.