Poetry At Its Best..... I Hope (Editing In Process)

"Disorder"

Disorder
People call it a disorder when actually
Its a feeling
We who have this "disorder"
Feel that being alone is the best thing we can do
To stop hurting others
Especially women
Women are the people who have a high tendency of getting this feeling
Being alone
Being afraid
Of doing the "right thing"
The feeling that we cant enjoy ourselves
Because we feel that salvation is what we need to do
They say its a disorder
Because it can hurt your own body
But its more than that
It can can turn your dreams in to nightmares
It can make you fail instead of succeed
It can make you feel like people use you instead of savor you
It makes you feel like it's you against the world
And the worse part is
Misery comes with it
The "disorder" they say i have
Is depression
Depression that does all of this to you
But i think depression is like cancer
It kills you and you cant surpass it
It makes you feel like you have to be lonely and miserable so that you don't turn into a hoe or a thot or a backstabber
Except the only difference is
That one is a disease and one is what they call a "disorder" but actually is a feeling
And they do it to make us feel bad about ourselves
But that wont stop me
"Depression" is just a word that defines the pressure people put on us
And the pressure that we put on ourselves
But who said it would stop me from what you need to do?
And depression might be something that can ruin your life
But in the end i still say to myself
"it sure as hell ain't gonna ruin mine!"