So flawed
So fatigued
Wishing I could do what others seem to do effortlessly
Things like work all day and have a career, go to the grocery store, clean the house, go out to a restaurant and enjoy it, take a hike...
Just to get off the couch without the paralyzing feelings of inertia would be welcomed.
It is frustrating to have to choose to rest now or it will be impossible to fulfill my parental obligations later in the day. Why can't I have both?
I want to be able to be active day and into the night without a thought! Carefree and blissfully breezing doing everything I need and want to do. Social with friends and family.
Trying to sleep an 8-hr night and then hoping for rejuvenation has been a goal. But this burst of energy after sleep eludes me day after day after day...
So I'm stuck in my mind. Fantasies of how it could be. How it has been. Looking into my loved ones eyes as I tell them again to go ahead without me with sadness and regret.
Wondering if I'm even worthy of this life
So fatigued
So flawed
VOCÊ ESTÁ LENDO
Inner Ugliness
PoesiaA compilation of raw poetry that I have written spontaneously without editing myself.
