Taehyung. He's just a man right? I think my love made him special
When that's gone I don't know him, or well. In a past life I knew him.
Teenage me knows him, but I don't. That might be clearer.
But I'm stuck here. He's so alluring. He's everything I used to want.
Borges and I
Jimin and I
Taehyung and Jimin
Same thing
And fuck him for leaving me when I begged him to never ever
Even though it made space for you. Oh my god it hurts sometimes.
For leaving again and again and
Coming in and out of my life like it's a fucing
*fucking grocery store
Not the best analogy I know shut up
Fuck it you understand what I'm saying don't you?
You're there, right Yoon?
I'm sorry for talking so much but you're the only friend who knows me
4:41 a.m.
I know he's bad for me. He's my nicotine
Much better metaphor
I used to smoke a little when I was younger. It was still pretty fucking naive. Just wanted to be edgy
So I know how it feels to crave something that is eating you alive. So bad your body can't work without it
This is corny but he's worse
Sooooo corny but he's hell
I'd rather die than have to do this dance forever
4:58 a.m.
I bought cigarettes earlier
I think it was me that bought them
Or perhaps it was the nostalgia
Or Jimin
Hmmm
5:09 a.m.
Trauma is so wild.
You mean to tell me I gotta live with this shit forever?
Crazy
5:24 a.m.
To be clear I didn't smoke the cigarettes
Don't wanna fall apart mentally and physically
Lol
I think I'm having a mental break I'm sorry this is so much
5:30 a.m.
I know when we were at the restaurant you said you think you're second best
It's not true
I hope I'm not overwhelming you when I say that sometimes I imagine what it would be like to still know you when I'm 70
5:40 a.m.
I am so scared of how I feel about you that I can't fall asleep
I am so scared of not having you around that I wish sometimes we never met at all
You take up so much space in my mind
You're gonna be mad at me for saying that and confusing you but I do I'd regret it so much if I didn't say that
You owe me rent money for that
6:04 a.m.
Oh look the sun is rising
I'm on the rooftop now, and I can see the station from here
The world looks so beautiful at daybreak
I know you might be concerned but I won't jump
6:18 a.m.
Yoongi?delivered.
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daybreak | yoonmin
Fanfictionso it begins at dawn. first, perfectly aligned windows. next, perfectly aligned stars.
may 13th.
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