The strand that once held me so tight
And pulled me to you
Has become so light
And the bond almost unglued
I feel you pulling me
With all of your strength
I hear it break under the pressure
But you attempt to mend it, for my sake
Where are we headed
I cannot tell
As I lay right beside you, bedded
You are sleeping, but I am going through Hell
I toss and turn under the covers
Contemplating my desicion
So young, but I can see myself with you for eternity, forever
I hear your light snore next to me, and I lie as I listen
I can't bring myself to sleep
I can barely breathe
I feel your arm latch over my waist, limp and weak
You pull me close in your sleep, and there, I know it's you I need
I know you need me too
To be there for you to fall back on
To guide you
But to brush me away when you can stand alone
I don't want that for us
I don't want that uncertainty of when you will need me, will want me
I need security, and your constant love and whole trust
I need you to never leave my side, to be there at my ease
I need to not need you
You take me for granted
I need to leave you
Leave you disenchanted
I feel your breath hot on my neck, breathing steadily
But I see deep frowns residing on your face
And I want nothing, but to kiss them away, tenderly
And see a smile replace
But I can't get everything I want
And maybe this is for the best
I climb from the bed, abandoning that want
As I kiss your cheek, I cry, leaving you to rest
You love me, you hurt me, you desert me, you lust me
This is not who I fell for
I'm not sure you would believe
But I am not the same me you once adored
I walk to the doorway of the bedroom, and look back at you
Soundly sleepily, I do not wish for you to wake
I suppress my want to hold you, to kiss you, to love you and go
I know I am doing it all for your sake
I hear the bound that held me to you snap
It is so loud in my head, but I know it is only a figment
I broke it; I created this gap
I know you heard it too, and it is almost as if we never existed
Don't go, I hear
Please never leave me, your voice says so clear
I sink to the floor, as I am brought to tears
I feel you wrap around me on the floor, and murmur in my ear
And at that moment I know I can never leave you
For your love gladdens me, saddens me
Makes me feel an irrepressible need for you
Your love daunts me
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You Let Me Surrender
PoetryTake me back to December The place I remember My haven where you brought warmth to my winter Huddling me in, and letting me surrender Dear reader, This is a collection of love poems describing a teenage romance. It has its ups and downs, its rises...