Can't Find The Right Words

Afraid

I'm so scared.

The anxiety fills me like a box of water that I'm drowning in.

I'm so scared.

But not of the people who judge and hate.

I'm so scared.

Of what I might do to myself if I let this consume me

I'm so scared.

Of the demons that push and pull on my muscles

I'm so scared.

Of the demons that influence me worse than other people do.
Of fake smiling too much to the point where I forget what happiness is

I can't destroy what destroys me

Because what is destroying me is myself

(L.j.m) [word count: 98]