Seems Like A Lifetime

Killing me softly

Ashley and I haven't talked since that night.

I replay it over and over in my head, how things should have gone, but didn't.

I cried myself to sleep every night my freshman year.

I went through 3 roommates because they used to get so freaked out they thought I had like mental issues or something.

I'm married now with two kids: Troy Jr. and Megan, the loves of my life.

I'm happy and I'm not sure if going back there is such a great idea.

I held the letter in my hand re-reading it over and over.

"Dear Alumni of King High. You are cordially invited to King High class of 1998's class reunion on October 22nd, 2008."

That was two weeks from today.

I'm not sure if I'm going yet.

Or if I wanna go even.

I haven't seen her since senior year and if I see her now I'm not sure what I'll do or say or if their even is anything to say.

I have two weeks to think about it, but right now I have to finish getting dinner ready for my family.

"Hey honey," my husband said entering the house.

"Hey sweetie," I replied giving him a kiss.

"Mommy, Mommy!" Troy and Megan yelled running in behind him.\

Troy is 5 and my baby Megan is 3.

"Hey babies," I said giving them both a kiss on the cheek.

"Ah, wow, it smells good in here babe, what you cooking?" he asked looking in the oven.

"Chicken and Cheese Casserole," I replied.

"Yay!" Megan and Troy yelled. It was their favorite.

"You two go get washed up for dinner."

"Okay mommy," they replied running up the stairs.

"How was the park, " I asked my husband.

"Fine. Troy Jr. is quite the ladies man," he replied fingering through the mail.

"And what exactly does that mean?" I asked smiling.

"The little girls were practically fighting to spend time with him in the sand box." he replied.

"Oh." I responded.

"Hey are you going to this?" he asked holding up the reunion invitation.

"I'm not sure," I replied.

"I think you should sweetie, what has it been, ten years since you've been back there? I think it might be good for you to go back."

"I'll think about it," I replied.

"Okay, well I'm gonna go wash up." he said kissing me on the cheek.

"Okay, dinner will be ready in ten," I stated.

He went upstairs, I picked up the invitation and sat down on the stool.

A part of me wanted to go back and see all my friends and even my family but another part of my was terrified.

I'm just not sure if I would be able to see Ashley with someone else.

Like what if she's married with kids?

What if she's single?

What if she's still mad at me?

What am I saying, I'm married with kids.