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ELLA.

When I ran out of the room, I saw Tita Sonia panicked and rushed to get inside the room also Ken's parents running next to her. They asked me what happened. But I keep myself in silence.

I want to leave their house as soon as possible. But Ken's family will think that I am disrespectful if I'm going to left without saying anything. I didn't move whenever I stand. I saw Tito Kerry and Ken carrying Jay out of the room. I saw Jay's pale face. His body is so weak. They run as fast as they could to get Jay inside the car.

"Ken, I'll bring your brother to the hospital. Call my secretary to cancel all my appointments today. Your Mom, and Tita will accompany me. Bring Kyle with you, and go next with us." Tito said and we watch them leave.

Ken get inside the house and get his younger brother who still sleeping. He put him inside the car. And open the passenger seat for me.

"What?" I asked with my raised eyebrow.

"Ella, I need you, can you please come with me to the hospital?" he pleaded.

I crossed my arms infront of my chest. Then said, "Why? I am no longer your girlfriend. And as far as I remember, I am nothing to you. I am nothing in your life. What sudden change,ha? Parang walang nangyari kanina, a. So, ganoon na lang 'yun?" I said with my irritating voice.

"Can we just talk about it later? Promise, if everything is okay. Then I will talk to you. Please, not now. I need you as my friend, can you? Please..." he said.

Nakita ko ang lungkot sa mga mata niya. At isa pa hindi ko magawang makahindi kapag siya na ang nakikiusap.

Sige Ella. Ngayon lang naman. Pagkatapos nito pwede mo na silang iwan.

Less than Fifteen minutes we reached the hospital.

"I don't want to get inside. Maiwan na lang ako dito sa kotse. Babantayan ko si Kyle. Go on, they need you inside."

"Okay," he said.

Tinignan ko si Kyle sa salamin at mahimbing na natutulog. Napaka-amo ng kanyang mukha. Kamukhang kamukha niya ang kuya Ken niya. Para bang pinagbiyak silang buko. Mukha nga silang kambal. Pero hindi pwedeng mangyari iyon dahil matanda ng 18 years si Ken.

Mabuti pa ang bata walang iniisip na problema. Walang ibang mararamdaman kundi saya. Saya sa paglalaro. Malulungkot at masasaktan lang sila kapag iniwan sila ng kalaro nila o di kaya'y hindi makapaglaro sa labas ng bahay dahil umuulan.

Suddenly, what happen earlier comes on my mind. Para bang tinutusok ang puso ko ng karayom ng paulit-ulit. I am not that worth? Pilit ko naman iniintindi kung bakit nagawa ni Ken at Jay 'yun.

Pero ang sakit-sakit talaga, e. P'wede naman ipaliwanag ni Ken lahat. P'wede naman niya muna ikunsolta sa'kin ang bagay na ito bago siya nagdesisyon.

I feel cheated. Mas mabuti pa kung malaman kong ipinagpalit niya ako sa pangarap niya kaya niya ako iniwan. Hindi yung ganito, malalaman kong ipinamigay niya ako ng gano'n lang. They make me feel worthless and stupid.

I feel a small hands wiping my tears on my face. "Ate, why are you crying? May masakit po ba?" litlle Kyle ask with his husky voice. I turn my head on him. Nakita kong kinusot kusot pa niya ang mga mata niya.

"Where are we, ate? Is that Kuya Jay's hospital?" I see the sadness on his face.

"Yes, baby. Your Kuya Jay is inside."