Open Fields of Ohio

13 ••• What If Not?

"Stop, Zack," I said in a clear joking manner. But the edge was there: careful there, Zack. He didn't hear it though.

"I bet Tess'a lucky to kiss you every day, huh?" At that I laughed.

"Not every day," I said while nearring Tess's place. I hadn't known we were walking that much long ... "Tess and I don't see each other every day."

"But when you do?"

"We fo stuff together," I said quietly, but louder: "I don't see why it concerns you, Zack. A kiss is just a kiss it doesn't matter with who, it's all about egat meaning you give it—see?" I leaned in and pecked his lips.

He let his jaw fall.

"No big deal, because I feel nothing towards you like the way I feel for Tess. So stop—" Zack stepped up and kissed me fully on the mouth, something I wasn't expecting, so when I gasped, I flet his unbelievably good tongue on mine.

And I kissed him back to show him that a kiss is just that: a kiss.

My meaning: challenge. I bit his lip and he kissed me much more urgently. But I backed away. "No big deal, but do not do it again, because I—"

"Have a boyfriend and can kiss whoever the hell you want. That's okay. It shouldn't matter." He said, I whirled around and saw Tess. Oh. He saw that? Something inside of me twisted the wrong way, though the old me decided to ignore it. But I still felt wrong. Zack swallowed and stepped back.

"I'm sorry, Tess, I didn't—"

"I know," Tess nodded towards Zack, but fixed his cold, hard to read gaze on me. "But from you? I don't. Why'd you ... well, you know." I stepped toward him an was relieved when he didn't move away.

"It. was. nothing," I promised. "A kiss is just an act, the meaning to why you do it is what counts. And I only did it to show Zack that I only kiss you like its life or death, but if I kiss someone, who isn't you, it doesn't matter. Because I only love you." Tess just shook his head at me.

"So you had to show him the ct, and not the words? You could've just explained it to him. Zack doesn't need any proof. Its just you and me." She shook his head again. "I can't believe you."

"You're over reacting here," I waved my hands in his face.

"Am not, Dawn. The fact that you kissed someone else tells me you can do it and will do it again. That makes me feel like nothing to you. In a relationship, you don't go round kissing people. Showing them that you only kiss your other half truly and them nonchalantly.

If so: cheating wouldn't count in relationships." I ...

Okay. He had a point. But I didn't mean to cheat. Oh, gosh. Did I just cheat? I did, didn't I? I took a deep breath and calmed down before i could panic.

"I'm sorry, I—" but I just couldn't. I ran away from him I felt so ashamed.

"Dawn. Danw, wait!" I ignored him. And ran as fast as my legs could carry me in towards the fields. I pushed oast plants and vines and grains. I felt mysekf grow smaller as the filed grew thicker and taller.

Until I was lost and I only heard the faint 'Dawn' from Tess. I sat on the ground and looked at the falling sun, it was a really deep orange, and if I could draw really good, I would draw it just now.

"Dawn. Where are you? C'mon, let's talk." Tess worried about me. I sighed, closing my eyes. I'm so stupid. I shouldn't have gone to Zack. It should've been my last option. But I went on any ways. "Dawn, baby, where are you? Please ..." I heard his voice break and with a quick moment of thought, I raised my arms, as if.

The field was too tall for even my hands to go higher than the almost half of it. But I called:

"Here..." And a moment or two later ...

"Princess," Tess sighed in relief. "Don't walk away like that ever again. You worried me up." I shrugged.

"Sorry." Was all I could say. I shouldn't have done what I did, it was stupid and reckless and wrong to you. Forgive me? I wanted to say, but he beat me to it.

"I'm just scared to see you with someone else, okay? I'm in love with you. I can't lose you. And I forgive you." With a kiss on my forehead then a silly one on my lips, he pulled me up and we walked to his house to spend the evening together.

Nothing much, just a fillerrrrr.

This girl 🙋 is up to no good these days. *laughs softly* Don't rat me out. *Gathers with best friend* Good bye, babes. 😘😙

-SkylerDawn💌