The Queer Sheep Of The Family(teen lesbian)

who I really am

"Here! This is your desk, and welcome to St Maria Gorreti Girls' High" I said extending my hand for a hand shake which was obviously not necessary but I just found myself wanting to hold her hand which was the only less awkward body contact I had wanted to make with her. "Thank you so much" Alexis replied and took my hand. "I couldn't understand this any more. God please what is wrong with me." I said inwardly as I sat on my own desk,just wishing nobody noticed my nervousness. We settled down as we heard the bell ring for the first lecture of the day! It was my favourite subject, and my favourite teacher is handling it as well. Reverend sister philomena was our literature teacher for the whole students offering that subjects. So I wasn't the only student who likes Sr. Mena as she is fondly called by all. But the special thing about my relationship with Sr. Mena is that unlike others she was fond of me too. I wasn't too friendly with my fellow students because for a reason I couldn't understand why I always felt awkward when I'm around them. "Maggie! Where is your text?" Sr. Mena shot at me in a not angry or pleased tone. "Are you with us here at all?" She continued.

"Yes Sister". I said bringing out my text in the most unenthusiastic manner, letting out a fraustrated sigh because I have noticed the class staring at me. The topic had been figures of speech, I fought with my head trying to focus on the lecture and also did my best not to turn to my right hand side as I wasn't sure why this alexis girl got to me this much.

About 45 minutes later, the class ended. And I tried to regain my sanity before the next teacher arrived and we will be having mathematics so I needed my concentration to be 100%. I couldn't get hold of myself because every now and then my eyes will meet her's and it will automatically send butterflies flying inside of me. I couldn't just wait for the day to be over but unfortunately time didn't quite agree with me because it seemed to stop ticking.

At the end of the 4th period which was civic studies. I went deep into thoughts again, questioning myself about what was happening to me. "What is happening? What is it about this girl and why do I keep blushing when she looks at me.?" I asked myself without getting any evident answer! I jolted out of my thoughts when I heard a very loud laugh from a group of girls in my class. "Oh! Its break time already? I thought to myself as I stood up to leave the class, then I noticed Alexis wasn't on her seat,"where could she have gone to, I said out but sure nobody had heard me, because the class was a little bit noisy.

Stepping out of my classroom ss1 block. I saw Alexis chatting and laughing with sarah and her friends who are mostly seniors in ss3.I immediately found myself getting jealous and because I had wanted to take her round the school and also to introduce her to our literature club, which I hoped she would love. She can make friends with anybody but not Sarah.

I lost my appetite for my lunch so I just went to back of the class and watched people playing volley ball, they are preparing for the tournament which was usually organised by the arch diocese for all the catholic schools in the state. The game held my attention throughout the break period which I consider a miracle because I havnt been able to get my mind off alexis since she walked into my class this morning.

The bell rang! Indicating that the break is over, I went back to the class in a mood I couldn't understand. I quickly took my seat and bent my head on my desk, just to prevent myself from looking at her. We took the other classes and at last! the final bell for the day rang! And I packed my things as quickly as I could and left the class.

I came out to the parking lot and searched through the cars lined up for my mother's car because she hadn't parked in the usual place, then there she was,chatting with a parent I have never seen before. I walked towards them and greeted the woman whom my mother had engaged in a conversation. "Good afternoon ma. I greeted as polite as ever. "Good afternoon my dear, how was school today? She asked and gave me a very familiar smile. "Very well ma'm, thank you.I answered, As I hugged my mum. I looked up to see Alexis walking towards me, oh my God! I started having that same feeling I had the first time I saw her. I fought to regain myself as I don't want my mum to notice anthing unusual about me.

"Good afternoon mum, good afternoon ma, she greeted and immediately it clicked. I remembered where I had seen that smile that her mum have had on when I greeted her. "How are you? My mum asked and she answered back politely. "I didn't know when you left the class, I wanted to borrow your notes" she said "and why didn't you ask your company sarah? I wanted to answer but I found myself promising to give her the books the next day in class.