*Jocelyn's Pov*
As I look up at the house I grew up in, all the memories-good and bad-rush into my mind as I place the last suitcase of mine in the truck of Niall's car. Everything comes rushing back to me like I just lived everything yesterday. But those will always stay at this house, no more negative thoughts only positive from now on.
My eyes water as I walk back into the house just to make sure I have everything I will need in California, I see one little thing on the floor peeking through underneath the door. I make my way to it seeing its an envelope with my name on it.
Dear My Amazing Daughter,
If you read this it means college has approached you, and we-your mom and I-are probably busy with all our work. We wish you the best of time at college, and we are so proud of you. We wrote this in the spare time of us not working, we wanted to tell you that your mother is pregnant and you're going to be a big sister. Yes, its a very big announcement but we hope you are happy. By time you read this the little bugger will be here but seeing as we probably won't be able to write you anytime soon might as well explain things now. Now you know I am not the coolest dad nor the brightest at times but I want you to know I love you very much and can't believe you are going to college. I remember when you were only two and spoke your first word and believe it or not you said 'dada' and I cried for three hours straight knowing you were my little girl. (If there's tears stains on this they're not mine.) I love you so much, Jocelyn Elle Stewarts and I am the proudest father there is.
Love you sky high, like apple pie baby girl.
(p.s. there's your little brother)----->
Love,
Daddy.
Shakily, I fold the letter back together placing it back in the envelope as a sob leaves my mouth. It was last thing he wrote before the crash, my eyes haven't left the picture of my baby brother's ultra-sound picture. I could have had a baby brother, but he and our parents were taken away.
I wipe the tears that run down my cheeks, picking up myself from the floor holding the letter close to my chest as I walk outside seeing everyone standing around. My eyes advert to Liam who is looking at me curiously he makes he way towards me when he sees the tears in my eyes.
"Joce, what's that?" he asks carefully pointing to the envelope I hand it to him watching as he reads it his eyes feel with guilt once he's done "Joce, I'm so sorry, oh god what can I do?" he asks I shake my head as my knees give out but he catches me
"Its okay, you're okay you'll get through this. Its okay, love just breathe." he whispers rocking us back and forth I feel everyone else around us he just hands them the letter letting them read
"I-I could've h-had a b-brother." I whimper he nods
"Shh, love breathe in and out." he soothes soon more arms are wrapped around us
They speak softly to me as I just sit staring into space feeling myself relax into Liam's arms, I close my eyes resting my head on his chest. We just sit there in silence while my mind races with the thoughts of having a little brother right now, seeing what he'd look like and what his name would be.
But I won't have that, I'll never have that 'cause I can't have kid to raise and I won't ever get a chance of having a baby brother or sister.
How sad.
Someone clears their throat making us all look up seeing Harry, Louis, and Zayn standing with their hands in their pockets,
"Everything okay?" Louis speaks up I feel myself nod releasing my grip from Liam standing up
