lost

alcohol

jays pov.

when we arrive home, trinity was still sniffling. i told her that i was fine but she didn't believe me. she even got so mad, that she pulled up my sleeve and pointed at my faded scars.

- flash back -

" babe im okay. "

she grabs my wrist.

" what the fuck ! this is not okay! dont you get it ! i dont want you to leave me ! you're the best thing that's ever happened to me, and if i lose you! i lose myself!"

she starts to cry. i engulf her into a hug.

" i dont want to lose you.. " she croaks

" you won't. ill stay right here. with you. "

" please.. "

" i promise babygirl "

- flashback over -

when we got home trinity headed straight to bed, jay brought all the stuff in and grabbed three beers and headed to her room. i grabbed a beer as well, and headed to my room. once i got there, i realized i got the pina colada flavor.

" whatever, " i mutter and chug it down. i really didn't care at this point. i see calyssa and kate come upstairs with wine, glasses, and tons of movies. after i finished, i went back downstairs and grabbed the bottle of patron.

" here goes nothing, " i say and drink the vodka. it burns my throat, but it feels nice. suddenly i see jay open my door.

" what the hell ? " she yells

" sorry " i mutter.

" sorry ? this is bad. yeah i know i had some beer but not a whole bottle of vodka! trinity! get some water bottles! " trinity comes in and hands jay the water. jay comes over to me and takes the alcohol, replacing it with water.

" drink the fucking water. " she says sternly.

" jay - "

" no. you're gona get a headache and you're gona be pissed. drink the fucking water. " she was fuming.

" okay " i grab the water and chug it down.

she slams the door closed, trinity in front of her. i lay in bed. jays never been this mad at me before.