Untold Script

Retold (End Note)

Happiness ending quickly...

I met Carl on Facebook, he was Akemi Satzuki O'Brien back then, someone who is using a dummy account for fun. It was the 30th of December 2012 when he randomly sent me a message. I sort of made him mad back then... I was joking when he got offended and I was not well aware of it. But then it kinda went away and we got to talk about lots of things. He has someone at that time, and I have my boy too. We were on the same page actually, for both of us have not talked to our companions for quite some time. From there we kinda clicked. We exchange our own dramatic POVs regarding our own relationships... And then the what-ifs were formed. As you can see, cyber world 2012 is not yet a place for immature people back then. We were under the impression that we all live as a character and that showing your OP will depend on your own choice. Yes, he showed his OP, and again I offended him for saying that he kinda looked like a poser, or should I say, I asked if anybody ever told him that he looks like one. Oh, he really did get pissed. And I was very sorry, I mean, woah there, he kinda has the looks and I am a sucker for thick eyebrows and such beautiful eyes.

We did talk a lot, up until 3-4 am. We have tons and tons of topics, so what happened with our own companions/love affairs? I was the first one to broke up with Cenver, the dummy name of the person that I was dating. After all, I know he will never come back anymore. It was my stupid hope wanting to hold on a little longer but yeah, I ended it. And then he was giving signs, showing the actions of being sweet, "kilig to the bones" as you may say. But no. I never wanted them to break up just for the sake of my happiness. I'm the one who's been urging him to do something so as not to end it so easily. And then he kinda knocked it off, because all he ever shows me is that I'm the one he likes. I'm the one he is going to choose. I told him if he wanted it that way if he really no longer loves her he should end it and tell it to her. Tell the whole story of why he is breaking up with her. I don't and never will want a cover-up for the real reason for him breaking up with her.

We ended up being together. He courted me for 2-3 weeks and so the 26th of January meant the most to me. The same old routine happens. We always ended up talking until 4 am. Until... something starts to grow. Oh yeah, yeah right. Our emotions as handlers for our fictional characters/dummy accounts start to grow on us and that we kinda ended up with the same silly pattern most of the people in cyber world seek to achieve. We did fall in love. It was a bit tough to explain and to accept but we passed that mark well enough.

And that's when a lot of problems occurred. The top being "jealousy". He's been jealous over a friend of mine, and I've been jealous over lots of girls clamoring around him. Not to mention he has more of them in the outside world too. Days before and after Valentine's we had some very serious problems and I really thought it's no longer gonna work out and it's over for us. But the next day surprised me... He sent me a text, and I immediately accepted it as a sign that it's not over yet so I did all that I can to get the feelings back on track. And it did.

We started talking more and more about ourselves, our stories, our favorites... so by the time that we hit the "18th birthday" topic... again, he did something that amazes me again, something that made me admire him even more. Apart from some late-night serenades through the phone, this one's really unexpected. He kinda sent me a letter as his gift for my 18th birthday. I'm sorry, but I'm a sucker for letters. Well, I never really thought such a man exists in this world. I mean, he always knows what's happening around me, he's definitely frank, he's sweet, he.... well he's rich and handsome and tall but those are just extra toppings for me.

We're doing good until March came... Family problems on his side. Oh yeah, we're kinda legit on both sides but his father does not approve of it. So, a lot of things happened. The first week of March, he was set to meet his twin brother no matter what it takes even though a birthday party's set for him in another country. The two of them rarely got the chance to meet since his twin decided to ran away from home and then there's Eris, even before this point, she has been telling me everything, updates about him. She was his friend and I dearly love her. She's also one of the few reasons why I've held on for so long. The three of them met. And then days after that... Carl told me he and his twin's set to leave for Australia.

I was under the impression that I was to blame for that. His dad never liked me and I'm not the right type of girl for his son. Eris told me that Carl's really trying to defend me but he has no choice but to do what his father says. I understood that everything, family always comes first so I never blamed him for that. In fact, I blamed myself for not being good enough to meet his father's expectations.

April, May, June...
Everything starts to get cold... we rarely talked. One time, when we finally got the chance to talk again, everything turned out great, all the negativity is gone, everything's just great... until he has to leave and his reason was something, and I do realize it's about his twin brother.

June 30.
He broke up with me. He asked for a breakup and I said yes. I told him a long time ago that if he seriously asks for it I will give it and so I did. And then everything changed.

Months later...

We got to talk again... still the same way, I was left there hoping and waiting things will change but no. I know he still loves me and I the same, but then it was really time to go.

I kinda did a great job at setting aside all my feelings for him hoping that if he ever gets back I will always be here welcoming him with arms wide open. But just the sudden turn of events which I have long been thinking of happened. Yeah, his twin brother died and he was set to marry Eris, and finally admitting he now thinks he's in love with her.

It's been years since we broke up. Months since we last talked. And to be honest, all the memories we once shared have started to fade. I'm not sad anymore or disappointed. I'm no longer in pain like how I used to cry every night for him whenever I remember happy memories of me and him. I mean, we did have that connection once. Whether it's a lie or not, whether his existence is genuine, whether the feelings were real I'm already done waiting to be saved.