My drug *UP FOR REVISIONS*

parenting & feelings

"Thank you guys, this means so much" I say "it was nothing" harry says. Calum and luke come carrying Ethan and Wyatt in the room and I take Ethan while niall grabs wyatt.

"Look you guys, this is your room" I say and kiss Ethans head and we go set them down in their big crib for both of them to fit into and they go straight to bed and we cover them with a blanket.

I pull niall into a sweet kiss and he kisses back then pulls away "lets let them sleep" niall whispers and we all quietly head head out the room and to the living room.

"Theres a baby monitor in every room in the house" louis says "that'll come in handy" I say and we walk into the kitchen. "We baby proofed the whole house" liam says "thats important" niall says and he goes into the fridge and grabs two water bottles and hands one to me and I thank him with a kiss.

"We also bought alot of baby food" michael says proudly and him and calum stand proudly. "Well for now their just going to be drinking milk, but thank you we'll use it as soon as we need them" I say.

We all go into the living room and start talking and hanging out until we hear crying through the baby monitor. "Lets go get that" I say standing up and grab his hand and we go into their room and pick up the two crying babies.

Niall and I look at eachother "we got this" I say and niall nods "we got this" he says.

(Harry's p.o.v)

"They're going to be such good parents" I say laying my head on nathans shoulder." They really are" liam says and I look over to louis and hunter being all coupley and stuff.

Why do I feel jealously? I-I dont like louis anymore, I pushed all those feelings away, th-they shouldn't be back, I mean they never really did leave.

That doesnt matter what does matter is getting these feelings to go away cause I really cant have this happening. Im happy and louis happy thats all I wanted and now that its actually happening I should be happy and not feel jealous.

Dont get me wrong I really like nathan and im so happy that I'm with him, but im still just jealous over hunter and thats not okay.

"Hey love?" I look over to Nathan "hm?" I hum in response "wanns get out of here?" He asks and I bite my lip. Then I look over to louis and hunter kissing and I turn back to nathan and nod.

He smiles and we stand up and everyone looks up at us "we're heading oit but we'll be back tonight" I say and we leave the house.

We get into his car and he drives us to the meadow and he pulls me out to the middle of the field. I smile but then I trip and fall bringing nathan down with me and he lands ontop of me.

I laugh and he just smiles looking down at me and he leans down and kisses me. I smile and kiss back and he pins my arms on each side of my head.

He pulls away and kisses my nose and I blush and he just smiles "youre so beautiful" he says and I blush some more. "Thank you" I say and he nods and he rolls off of me and we both sit up.

"How have you been feeling harry?" He asks and I sigh and looks down to my lap. " better than I was before" I say leaving out the whole jealousy thing.

"Well thats good to hear" he says and I feel him kiss my cheek and I smile and look up to him." Your eyes are telling me that you're leaving something out" he says.

"I-im not" I say and he gives me that look "harry please tell me" he begs. "I think im getting jealous of louis and hunter" I say looking away from nathan.

Its silent for a moment and I get scared thinking about him leaving me. "Does this mean that you're.......having feeling for him again?" Nathan asks with fear in his voice and I turn to him.

" to be honest I dont know but what I do know is that this doesnt change how I feel for you" I say and he looks at me too. " im just scared you're going to leave me for him" he says truthfully and I feel my heart break looking at the sad yet scared look on his face.

"I chose you didnt I?" I say and he looks down "yeah but what if you start liking him more than you like me" he says and sighs. I grab him by his chin and make him look up at me and I stare into his eyes.

I press my lips to his and close my eyes, at first he doesn't kiss back so I place my hand on his chest and slowly push him bsck not moving my lips from his.

He lays back on the floor and I kiss him deeper than I was before while cupping his cheeks. Then he places his hands on my waist and starts kissing back just as deep.

He sucks on my bottom lips and pulls back tugging at my bottom lip. We stare at each other until we kiss eachother again and he places his hands on my lower back and slips his tongue into my mouth.

Our tongues move together slowly and I begin to run my fingers through his short hair. He pulls back and lifts a hand up to my lip wiping off the spit on it and pecks my lips.

He uses his other hand to brush his thumb across my cheek and I rub our noses together giving him a Eskimo kiss. He pecks my lips again and then sighs and looks into my eyes.

"Im still scared" he whispers Nd I rest my forehead on his "so am I" I say and we just lay there and share kisses here and there but we mostly just enjoy each others company.

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Its night time now and we decide to head back to louis house. When we walk in I hold onto nathans hand and he kisses my cheek.

"Where did you guys go?" Luke asks and we sit down next to calum and ashton." We just went and hung out" nathan says and I nod and lay my head down on his shoulder.

"So whats for dinner?" I ask "nandos" liam says and I nod and get up and walk into the kitchen to make a plate for me and nathan to share.

But of course louis and hunter are making out against the fridge and I ckear my throat. They quickly pull away and they blush and I walk over to the food and grab a plate.

"So how was your day?" Louis asks " it was nice, and I think I already know how yours was" I say and I grab some napkins and I head out into the living room again and try ignoring the jealously.

I sit down next to nathan and I hand him a fork and we start to eat the food. There is a tension between us and I think everyone can sense it.

So thats why nobody really talked instead we all just watched movies. I mean people would coment and mak jokes but besides that it was a pretty tension filled night.