no strings attached

what i used to say

i've learned to accept the wars inside my head, 

instead of fighting them and picking at my scabs

i haven't given up, i've given in. 

i learned to accept, 

to forgive, 

forget to sit alone

i learned to ignore, 

avoid, 

i learned silence 

i learned not to get fixed, 

i learned to stay away

wars happen for a reason, 

you can give up or give in, 

trust me there is a difference

do you know how to avoid 

someone you love? 

trust me, it's hard

do you know how to not know 

and to know with 

the knowledge of never knowing? 

trust me, it's easy

we play hide and seek in the dark, 

with the monsters under our beds

we peek around corners in our tiny little castles, 

with the ghosts in the closet

we laugh at ourselves and accept getting laughed at, 

with the vampires above our heads

i stare at everyone else,

 holding hands with 

the ghouls i've come to know,

 forget and forgive

do you know how to 

avoid someone you love? 

trust me, it's hard

do you know how to not know 

and to know with 

the knowledge of never knowing? 

trust me, it's easy

i'm not going to say 

to give up on your dreams, 

that's to cheesy

i'm saying that you should give up 

or give in, and make friends 

with the bad and the evil

the lines on my arms, they wrap around me

 like snakes and choke me

i can feel it now, my oxygen leaving 

as the air teases me 

and pretends to come into my lungs

i can't move, 

but i can feel, 

i can taste, i can see but it's blurry, 

and everything's failing

do you know how to

 avoid someone you love? 

trust me, it's hard

do you know how to not know 

and to know with the 

knowledge of never knowing? 

trust me, it's easy

we play hide and seek in the dark, 

with the monsters under our beds

we peek around corners in our tiny little castles, 

with the ghosts in the closet

we laugh at ourselves and accept getting laughed at, 

with the vampires above our heads

i stare at everyone else, 

holding hands with the ghouls i've come to know, 

forget and forgive

the knives that you gave me for my birthday, 

were they for me or for you?

i can turn myself off, 

by just a simple blow

the skeletons in my closet are 

too many to count and I don't 

even know how to get rid of them

but trust me, i swear i will bleed

but trust me, i swear i will bleed

i dream of paradise, 

but it always turns into nightmares

i used to pray, 

but they were never answered

i used to make wishes, 

but I've been forced onto 

the sides of the demons and not the angels

i used to say forget and forgive

i used to say forget and forgive