Read Between The Lines

Part 16

Okay understatement she hated us.

‘AHHHH’ I screamed out in frustration why must things be so complicated, why did we even feel so attached to this girl like we needed to help her? It would be so much easier if we could just walk away.

Hearing footsteps walk down the wooden floorboards towards my room I sit down on the edge of my bed and watch as seconds later the door swings open.

‘Lou’ I hear harry say cautiously before he enters with the other boys following behind him.

‘What’s up lads?’ I question placing a very thin and fake attempt at my usual cheeky grin on my face. The boys spread out around my room sitting down on the chairs and lounging on the floor making themselves at home.

‘We need to talk’ Liam gently spoke looking up with caution on his face,  meeting his eyes I watched as his expression turned into a faint and wary smile as soon as I let out a laugh at the cliché line.

‘Why do I feel like you’re about to break up with me?’  I couldn’t help retaliating with a smirk on my face.

Preventing Niall from laughing at my cheeky come back Zayn placed his hand over his mouth and shook his head at the little Irishman. I sighed in disappointment realising that this conversation was actually going to happen.

‘Just say it’ I stated with a blank expression on my face and no emotion in my eyes. Knowing what was going to come I definitely wasn’t surprised when harry took a deep breath before starting of his sentence.

‘About Britt’

Britt’s POV

1 week.

All it’s been is one week.

Why the hell does it feel like it’s been so long?

I instantly shake myself out of the thoughts that I know I shouldn’t be having. I need to stay strong.

It’s been one week since I cut off all ties with josh. The person I had been closest too for years. Someone I really thought that I could trust.

So he must have done something right? I must have cut someone as supportive as him out of my life for a reason.

That’s what normal people would have done. Normal people would realise what a treasure he is and still be friends with him, but not me.

I’m not normal. I have to be different.

He did shit all and I still dropped him like a rock. I made it seem like I needed other things in my life them him right now, like I was too busy for friends and for him. I had to work so hard to keep my smooth mask on my face when I told him that. Inside I was breaking and screaming at myself not to cut off the one thing that made the last few days’ worth living.

But honestly.

The truth?

I couldn’t have him in my life. He has already come too close to me.

He didn’t deserve my shit.

He needed better than me. Much better he was a good person he deserved a brilliant life.

But he couldn’t know. I didn’t want his memories of me tarnished. No matter what I need him to see me as what he had the past few days strong. I couldn’t let him see the other part of my life, the weak part.

Every time I think about all the things that went on last Thursday I just couldn’t bear it. Most people would call me an idiot. Most people would think me stupid for letting him go, but most people don’t have my life and most people don’t know what it’s like to be me.