-drink water and drown your sorrow in the tub where you found the body of your sister, red
-put your head in between your knees and breathe, in out in out, as the drugs rush through your veins
-laugh when he touches you, cry when he leaves
-rip all of the pictures off of the walls, smash them, use the glass to cut your skin and paint new pictures in blood
-forget them, forget yourself
-write a note to your sister telling her all of the reasons you miss her and all of the reasons you hate her for leaving you behind
-cut off your hair and make bracelets from it so they can identify your body
-drive the car 9 miles over the speed limit in hopes that a cop may stop you before you reach your destination
-turn left down a dirt road that leads to somewhere nobody has been in years
-listen to the leaves rustle and the pills rattle in the bottle you stole from your mother’s bathroom cupboard
-hope your mother doesn’t cry too hard at your funeral
-beg God to forgive you as you swallow the pills, 3 handfuls with a bottle of water
-leave the car running and listen to the radio, a song your sister used to like playing as you fall asleep, already feeling your heart hiccup under the pressure of the drugs
-sleep forever, don’t dream, let your body rot when the car runs out of electricity and people search everywhere for you with dogs
-smile because you made it out
-cry because you’re all alone now
-forever
