Read Between The Lines

Part 15

Reaching the edge of the lake I glanced over and saw 5 figures sat on the pontoon obviously waiting for someone. That was them. I could feel it. Oh well here goes nothing, I began to walk faster keeping my head down not wanting to look at Yvonne until I was stood in front of her.

Beside me I felt Josh tense and I frowned at the ground annoyed that I was too scared to look up and see what was waiting for me. The realisation that if josh tensed then it obviously wasn’t good news, set in and my heart rate began to quicken.

Out of nowhere I got jumped on by 5 people and I crouched down protecting as much of myself with my arms as possible. I tensed up expecting the punches but all I felt was cold air hitting my arms and legs. I looked up and gasped.

In front of me was one direction. Oh thank god.

My heart rate slowed back down to its normal pace as the reality sunk in that there were no bullies around. They weren’t going to hurt me today and especially not with josh around.

I let out a big sigh of relief as I looked up at Josh.

‘Why so tense love?’ Liam asked me as he watched my body unfold from the floor allowing me to regain my posture.

Before I had a chance to reply Harry burst out, ‘Can we tell her now? Please liammm?’

He nodded and I watched as the excitement filled his face.

‘SURPRISE !!! We bought you….ALL TIME LOW TICKETS.’

As those words came out of Harry’s mouth the relief I felt at not seeing the bullies vaporised almost instantly.

Almost like instinct my gaze flickered over to look at Josh and I saw him tense, the muscles jumping in his arms. I watched his hands slowly curl into fists at the words as he refused to lock gazes with me. I felt so confused, my instinct to push him away from my life was gone, and I found my legs itching to go over and comfort him. To support him and ask him exactly what had gotten him so tensed, I mean I knew that we were going together to the concert but why would he get so angry?

It’s like they had morally offended him, he looked about ready to kill someone and for the first time since I met him I actually felt afraid of what he would do next. Forcing myself to focus on the task at hand, I dragged my roaming eyes away from Josh’s tensed body.

I looked around at all the boy’s excited and happy faces.

All of them shinning with hope that going to this concert with them will bring us closer together and will be a bonding experience for us.

But as soon as I saw that hope in their eyes I knew what I had to do…

I had to kill it.

I refused to let myself be close to anyone.

Let alone a bunch of celebrities that little immature girls fan girl over. I can’t put myself in harm’s way again.

I can’t trust anymore.

Not since…Matt.

As I began to feel the familiar sensation of the memories flooding back into my brain I stiffened and put up my wall, preventing them from entering. I knew deep down that it was all in vein. That eventually the wall would come crashing back down bringing the painful memories with it and the longer I left it the harder it would be to face. But I had to put that wall there because I couldn’t deal with them yet. I had to show these boys that I wasn’t their plaything. That they couldn’t just decide to take pity on me, it wasn’t what I wanted and they needed to see that.

‘I can’t go with you’ I spat out with venom in my tone, staring hard at them my eyes emotionless.

 ‘Wait what?’ Harry asked me with confusion written all over his face, ‘Are you sure you heard what we said-?’

‘No it’s more than can’t. I DON’T WANT to go with you.’ I spoke again ensuring my voice was more forceful this time.

Niall looked at me with exasperation and let out a big sigh. Suddenly I felt something in the bottom of my stomach, something was squirming and it made me want to look away from his gaze, the gaze that was judging me. I almost felt sort of guilty? Like I know that I shouldn’t be being so difficult, but I couldn’t let them see that. Because emotions like that are weaknesses and if they see weakness they can pounce on me and rip me to spreads. Believe me, I would know.

‘Britt please we want to help you, we want to be your friends. We understand your going through some rough stuff but we need you to keep your head up.’

I looked up to see all the other boys nodding in agreement with harry and looking at me with sympathy in their eyes.

I almost laughed at their stupidity.

My mouth dropped open ready to crush the boys hopes that we could be…

‘Friends’

It’s just not going to happen it’s not the fact that I don’t want to be friends with them; I just can’t be friends with them. I’m not stupid; I can see that there is a lot more to these boys then meets the eyes. They are not the people that everyone obviously thinks they are, they are more than just celebrities, they are actual people. They have feelings and emotions too but none of them.

No-one will ever understand.

Ever.  

Eleasha’s POV

Placing my make-up bag on the ledge I looked up at my reflection in the grimy public toilets mirror.

Analysing my face I saw that the damage was worse than it felt. It was way worse. I looked like I had been dragged through a bush backwards and then been punched in the face 20 times repeatedly. Sighing with exhaustion from my day I unzipped the barely touched make- up bag in front of me and pulled out my concealer.

I rubbed it over the scratches blending it in until the best part of them had disappeared. I then pulled out a clean white sponge and uncapped my liquid foundation, pouring it over the sponge and gently applying it onto my face I winced at the contact and forced myself to think to the future. I had to think ahead.

Because deep down I knew that if I looked back I would break.

Happy with the fact that the majority of my bruises were covered I shoved the make-up back with the rest and slung it into my shoulder bag.

Giving myself one finial sweeping look I walked out of the scummy toilets and onto the street. Analysing the familiar high street across the road my eyes focused on the pizza parlour and I sighed with content feeling safer then I had in a long while.

‘It’s good to be Home’.

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CHEKKKY UPLOAD THERE ;) 

Yo eleashas gunna love me for this, shes been nagging me for ages wanting me to put her character in *rolls eyes dramatically* not cool. 

but yeahh ELEASHAS IN!!!! :) 

WHAT DO YOU ALL THINK ? 

TENSE ? 

EXCITING? 

Put some bosh ? moments in their oh wait BOSH SOUNDS LIKE A FRIKKENN DISWASHER-.- Someone help me make a name for britt and josh :( I obviously suck at them! 

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Sorry to talk about them again! anyways hope you all enjoyed love ya ;p ill upload soon. 

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