His name is

God - I love him idk if he loves me but here the tea on everything I can tell you

He a cuddle bug

He loves 21 pilots ( other songs are good as well tho )

He will make relentless fun of you - exspecially if he like you in any amount - this is because he is scared , scared to trust you , or to care about you and wants to push you away , this is more prevalent on bad days .

Yes he has bad days - days that he thinks everyone wants somthing , and that he is unloveable - those days are hell , but he still him and I still see it everyday

He dialed back in the making fun part , and has these awesome male friends he calls " the bois" they love this ms paint show , one of them is always a bit high ( do not ask them to pass a drug test trust me ) they live camping and hiking and all of that - I love going on the adventures with them just never have the time anymore .

He has 2 brothers - both of which are - well fruity of some sort - he will say he isn't gay , he will say he actually straight . I don't know what he is - I will never claim that I do , as that his own right to know , but be aware at one point he told us he was bi , but had to carry on the faimly name . I'll theorize it internalized homophobia, or some sort of homophobia, I'll never find out .

I say this with love truly but I love a man who is emotionally distant , one who struggles with exstrem ptsd and self worth , he degrades himself , and distances himself from people he loves because he is scared , and can't admit that he needs help to fix it .... And he is one of the most kindest man i have ever met , and he confuses me so much.

I love the man with all my heart , I have know him since elementary school, and although I think I know this is a toxic relationship in the regards that he has hurt me and will hurt me many more times . I refuse to leave him because I am stubborn. He hates my best friends - and they him . But I hope one day they don't , and in a world that is fairy tales and beauty they will make up , with rather a spectacular fight , or a time that stretches long enough for them to forget why they where mad . I started the downfall but it was coming .

His name is —————- but I call him ——- , ——- , god forsaken child , stubborn , a bitch , and many more names . But I care and I hope one day he cares about me . This is the story or more of the autobiography of a very unreliable narrator and the man who needs to heal but is scared to .