Hello
I've essentially disappeared, and I feel like you deserve at least a brief explanation as to why. I've had a terrible year so far. It started with moving problems before returning to college; mid-year, I had a breakdown and moved back home. I've officially dropped out of the program I was studying and will be starting a new one next year.
The truth is, I haven't been feeling well or in the mood to do much. I've especially found myself lacking motivation for the things that used to bring me so much joy — and my fanfics are one of them. I refuse to delete them or give up on them because they're such an important part of me, and I have stories and endings planned for all of them that I want you to read someday. But right now, I don't have the mindset for publishing. That part feels the most exhausting — the anxiety of wanting to give you my best, improving my English so it's easier to read, and meeting my own expectations. All of that, which normally comes with the process, is something I can't handle right now in this difficult stage of my life.
The fact that people still like and share what I've written has encouraged me to leave this message, as a way to thank you for all the love and support I continue to receive. I don't plan to stop writing, but posting fanfics is off the table for now. I've been writing — even dedicating myself more to original stories lately — but I can't put myself in the position to publish anything.
I'm not going to delete my works, but please forgive me for not knowing if I'll post again this year or the next. I want to focus on learning to enjoy things again and bringing some order back into my life.
Thank you so much for all the support I've received on this platform and the others where I've published. I'm proud of the little I've accomplished, and I sincerely hope that one day I'll have the strength to write for you again. My heart aches to do this — to you and to myself — but I do it with the hope that one day I'll come back stronger than ever, to enjoy writing again and for you to enjoy reading.
Until we meet again, with love, XOXO Ella
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A COURT OF DARK SHADOWS AND LIQUID GOLD (AZRIEL X OC)
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