PAWN

Pawn ♟️ 1

LILY

I zipped the last luggage I have, place it next to the my other ones. In total i have five.

Well not too much actually, if you are moving out permanently five is a less too much for lifetime belongings.

I'm finally moving out the country. So excited to start my college journey.

Not like I am nerd or something no i am barely average but new fresh start is something we all need when our lives become dark and gloomy.

I am studying chemistry because i was very good with it and because i don't have anything else in my mind.

The scholarship that i was trying to earn very hard is a blessing a real catch for someone broke like me.
Simple rules: keep studying, keep attending and have decent grades, with that your tuition will be paid and the real deal is that you'll be offered a salary.

I have known about this scholarship program two years ago from the principal of municipality because I was enrolled in anything and everything that could give me money in return.

He for sure wasn't telling me personally about this but I shamelessly overheard him talking about it so i write the information down and started working for it since that.

I couldn't believe myself when I read the acceptance email. The interview wasn't my best but i wasn't stuttering or talking nonsense. I told them the truth about myself.

And they seemed like they did believe otherwise i won't be accepted.

They contacted me few weeks later to inform me about the registration process and how I just have to meet their representative at the campus.

Like really we don't have to make contact with the registration office or anything.

First when I heard about it and saw what they offer to the accepted students first thing came to my mind was that it is scam.

Well looking at my emails and going through the schedule, the curriculum and my starting date sent from university email.

It is so real. And I am so blessed to have this chance.
Well of course one problem is on my side.
Where i would be living.

I didn't thought twice. I sold my house in blink of an eye.
I am now living in small apartment near my  university. It will be my home.

I really didn't like my house at all. I'm not coming back here like ever.

The future is waiting for me in Luxembourg.
The only thing I still own is my car. My almost decent care. I was nearly going to sold it too but my house covered actually my expenses.

And my savings account was a lot more helpful. So I'm financially safe and secure.

I put my last bag in the trunk. And went out to the road. It's a long ride and i want to have my time unpacking and discovering my new home.
I know how it sounds, I owned a house I owned a car how come I afford that and don't afford going to college.

Well this is my heritage from my mom side.
Before she died she passed me her belongings which were the house and her savings account.

Her savings account made me able to afford a decent car. She wasn't present in my life. But her passing me her heritage tells me that she cared but not entirely enough to reach out to me.

I lived on my own enough to realize that loneliness is a blessing.

I had my own rules made me disciplined, made me serious about my future. And determinant to build a life for myself.

I am not smart, I am not strong I am nothing to trigger your interest in me
I am just strong willed to change my life.
That's what drives me forward.

I listened to music on the road, Adele to be exact. It  calms me.
I arrived at my new apartment, its calm area and not crowded forested and soothing.

I haven't been prouder in myself that this moment
Dragging my bags inside rapidly before getting frostbite. Locked the door then went deeper into my warm home.

I started unpacking in the very next moment, yes I am an organized freak.
I wouldn't be sleeping if my bags are piled into the middle of my apartment.

Solid two hours is what takes me to finish everything. The apartment is all furnished taking the last month i spent in getting it ready for my moving in.

I take a shower, hot long shower. Cleaned my body deeply, shaved, rubbed and finalized with lotions and skin care products.

I wear my pajama and get into my cozy precisely chosen queen bed.
I can benefit from couples hours of sleep.

I woke up the next morning with the dedication to finish with stocking up on groceries so I could have plenty time wondering around the campus.

It didn't take me long to find my own routine. I left my bed, satisfied with the amount of sleep that I got, Showered quickly applied my body butter, splashing my favorite perfume on, get into my wardrobe - I can't even believe I have one- and get my jeans and warm sweater to wear them.

I got my coffee ready knowing I got nothing to breakfast on so eventually I have to find a pantry nearby to dissolve my misery.

Tucking my feet into my sneakers i went out and started my car, i make the ride quick and ended the grocery shopping trip I spoiled myself with some fine food choices- On Budget- obviously.

Stocking my kitchen with the stuff i just bought i felt home truthfully.
I thought about owning a pet many times but I guess I couldn't afford this luxury I had to work many hours, studying even more than that.

I can't get a pet with planing to neglect it, yet here there's my parents who got me to this world just to left me on my own. Huh.

I promised myself they won't disturb my peace again. I promised myself that they are a page that ended and i would never turn back to read it.
But sometimes small things spill out of my hands..

I took my time and slowly i cooked for myself a fine meal:  steak for lunch, i made sure to enjoy every bite and I did.
I cleaned the mess after my meal and went off to change into something more casual.
I am officially done with everything I have check in on my today's to do list.

Finally free to went off to the campus.
I decided to walk this time it's not too far at all, and a good amount of fresh air would be amazing for crowded mind people like me.

I walked through the gate, checked out by the security guard- which were unnecessary mean and rude but still they won't be able to get under my skin.
The campus is way more better than i saw on the website.

I take my time discovering the buildings, the roots and all the places i may need, I passed by what i believe is our laboratory classroom And i made sure to get familiar with my classes auditorium so i need no one else to guide me through the chaos of the first college day tomorrow.

I returned back, happy with the freshness that I am full of.
Get into my bed I thought about all the scenarios that could happen with me in this university, I saw my Graduation ceremony i saw myself through the cap capturing the moments for life and when I was totally wasted, I tucked myself properly into the blanket drown into the freshness of my new mattress, before drifting away in my sleep I made sure to set my alarm for tomorrow big day.

I hope this place treats me well more than other places I thought I do belong to.