Chapter 1
Dear diary:The situation I'm in now is hands down all my fucking fault and I can't blame anyone but my fucking self. I should've never done what I did and I'm just truly sorry for all the hurt and trauma I've caused over time and I want to be forgiven. I know it'll take so much time to get the trust and love that I want and miss so dearly, but I'm willing to work thing's out and grow bigger than before if it means I'll never lose you. I cutted and had to erase so many people out of my life just to see who was really by my side. And guess what? The one's I thought was actually going to stay like when they'll be my ride or die no matter what, was the one's that left and showed me their true colors. Its really heart breaking to me, cause we built up so much trust and became the shit together, but now I'm left with those I should've been with in the beginning cause they've never folded.
I'm not going to lie and say that I haven't been looking for another you, cause I have. But it's not good at all cause they're not you at all and it's ruining me on the inside way more than it shows on the out. As much as I want to, I can't keep running from what I've done and those that I've hurt along the way and I have no choice but to hope for forgiveness before I lose the rest of me. Hell maybe I already did lose the rest of me after all this time?
I've been denying reality for quite some time now and I'm just truly fucking up the process of healing the atmosphere of this sad galaxy. I'm fucking up trying to heal those that I deeply love and feel like only thing I can do is just go home, turn down the light's and breakdown and cry for all the wrong reasons. All the reasons that needs to be cried about is draining and dragging me along for the hoping sake that thing's will become way better to make sense for other's. My tears are hurting my face and is leaving damage that's scarring me to what feels like unhopeness and death that has it out for me since I was a kid.
I've been up all night thinking about little ole you and what was done for us to get where we are. I fucked up big time and I feel like you and everyone else hates me for what I've done. I can't get you out of my head and I just love you so fucking much and want us to be okay again and start fresh. Why can't we start fresh? Is it cause I'm to cursed to love and or be loved?
BẠN ĐANG ĐỌC
Attachment Issue's
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