Living the Dream [JERRIE]

Chapter 2

PERRIE P.O.V

We just finished our 3rd album and I couldn't be happier. Well in theory, I guess I could be...

You see, although I am in a 'relationship' with the one and only Zayn Malik, it is only a fake relationship set up by our management for publicity for both of us. As Zayn had just left One Direction, management were extremely keen to keep this 'relationship' going between us. Although him leaving has not been publicly announced yet, and I haven't even been able to tell the girls either which really sucks. Speaking of the girls, they believe our relationship is completely genuine and 100% support it.

Don't get me wrong, Zayn is a great guy and anyone would be lucky to have him, it's just that I am gay and no one else in the world knows, not even the girls or my family. I'm too scared to tell anyone though, what if they hate me.

Me and Zayn are just like friends to be honest, we joke about and stuff, but there is nothing there at all. We both know that, and he knows that I am gay which I forgot to mention before and he is completely fine with it. This actually gave me a bit of hope that everyone else would understand and be ok with it as well, but for some reason I can not bring myself to telling anyone.

Zayn and I both want out of this relationship like nothing else. He is completely head over heels for a girl he mentioned who he has grew up with, but I can't remember her name. Sophie? Sally? Sandra? Sapphire? That's it, Sapphire!

As he had left the band he didn't have much to do so came to the studio occasionally, claiming that he had a day off. He couldn't come every day or it would look suspicious. I didn't mind though, it results in us not having to act like a couple around the girls, which equally for us we feel uncomfortable in doing so. You know, me being gay and him in love with Sapphire.

I always gave him advice on how to win her over, and he was very thankful for that, and he gave me advice on how to try and win girls over. When I was younger I dated some girls but none of them reached up to the mark with me, and now that I am known all around the world, dating girls would not be a possibility as I have not came out to anyone yet.

I heard his phone go off and he showed me a text he received, it said: "Yeah I would love to hang out with you on Saturday, when and where? - Sapphire x". We both started to mini fist bump the air and high-fived. The sound of our hands smacking together seemed to get the attention of the rest of the people in the room.

"What are you guys excited about?" Jesy questioned from across the room. We had to think of an excuse fast, we couldn't just say that Zayn possible has a date with his dream girl on Saturday when that is supposed to be me. We looked at each other and I looked away and my eyes landed on Jade who seemed to be smirking at a text she had. Leigh-Anne noticed me looking at Jade and quickly spoke up asking her about the text.

"Wow that was a close call" I whispered to myself, and Zayn must of heard as he replied with "I know right, we need to come up with excuses man!" To take any remaining focus off of me, I decided to run over and take a seat next to Jade. Before any of us were able to look at what the text said, she had put the phone away and just sat there.

I put my hand on her wrist and asked what it said, and she turned around looking straight into my blue eyes. Her chocolate ones we so warming to look at, and also so easy to get lost in. For some reason whenever I am around her or touch her, I have loads of butterflies in my stomach. Weird right?

She claimed it was nothing but I knew she was lying as she started to blush. Jesy must have picked up on it as she shouted out saying Jade was blushing. I don't know why, but something inside of me told me to put my hand on her slightly smaller thigh, once again butterflies..

She quickly got up out of her seat and rushed towards the door. The rest of the people in the studio and I were left extremely confused and when she turned around when opening the door I think she noticed them. She then looked at the ground and I have to admit it was extremely cute. Wait what? I find her cute? I really need to figure this out.

The other people in the studio shouted at her to ask what was wrong, and to come back, but I was just taken back by her beauty, I mean, she is a good looking girl, but her looking so desperate and confused in a way made her looking absolutely stunning. Did I like Jade? Do I tell her? I mean couldn't this ruin Little Mix and our whole friendship? I needed answers.

Just as I was about to follow her after my period of thought, I heard a car engine start and the clicks of cameras outside the window. I rush towards it and see Jade speeding off in her car. What was wrong with her? Did she realise my potential feelings and get completely freaked out? I need to know!

Once everyone grasped the whole Jade running away situation, we were all left stuck for words to be honest. What had just happened was the main vibe in the room.

Jesy went to grab her phone to call her and a wave of what felt like jealousy hit me. I genuinely like her I thought to myself. I quickly stopped her and calmly walked out of the studio telling the rest of the people there I was going to go and find her. Zayn came with me to not look suspicious and I told him about my quite clear feelings for Jade. He seemed thrilled and drove me to her house.

I got out of the car and as I was about to shut the door, Zayn stopped it with his surprisingly long arms and said to me "Go get her!". I smiled to myself and gave him a big thumbs up.

Here I am, stood outside the house belonging to the girl I like, and about to tell her my feelings. I check myself out in the glass by her front door to make sure I look presentable and then knock on the door waiting for a response.