Follow Ashlynn's journey as she deals with immense loss and trauma at a young age. Join her as she learns that not all people in her life are going to leave. Laugh and cry with her as Ash embraces life once again with help from a group of loving and...
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It was Saturday and lunch had finished a few minutes ago. Mommy said that she wasn't feeling good and was really tired, so she went to bed. Daddy said that he would be in his office, he started going in there more and more after Mommy got sick. Sometimes he would stay in his office all day. I got bored playing with the dolls I got for my birthday, so I went to see if Mommy was sleeping. I climbed up the stairs and crept to Mommy and Daddy's door.
"Mommy? Are you sleeping?" I whispered as I slowly opened the door.
"Hey baby. Um, could you go and tell Daddy that Mommy needs help?" Mommy asked in a strange voice when I walked into the room. I nodded and ran down the stairs. I went to Daddy's office and saw that the door was open. It's good that the door is open. That means that Daddy is not really busy, and I can go inside.
"Daddy? Mommy told me to tell you that she needs help." I said as I went over to where he was sitting.
"Thank you, Ash. Come on, I'll give you a piggyback ride upstairs." Daddy told me as he stood up and I climbed on his chair and jumped on his back. He walked out of the room and up the stairs to his bedroom.
Daddy walked over to the bed, next to Mommy and put me in her lap. Mommy held me close and put a kiss on my forehead. I leaned against her as I listened to what Mommy and Daddy were saying.
"Antonio, it hurts. The medicine isn't working. I don't think I can get out of this attack." Mommy told Daddy. I watched Daddy's face turn kinda white.
"No. No, no, no. Ellie, don't say that. You can get through this. Come on, I'll take you to the hospital. They'll give you a stronger dose of the medicine and you'll be home again." Daddy said as went down to his knees and grabbed Mommy's hand.
What was happening? Is Mommy having another attack? Is she going to the hospital? "Mommy, what's happening?" I asked and placed my hand on her cheek.
"I'm just having another attack, Ash. But it's gonna be okay. We're going to the hospital, and they'll give me medicine so that when I leave, I won't be in pain." Mommy whispered as she kissed my cheek.
"Leave? Where are you going? I wanna come! I'm going with you!" I exclaimed and held on tighter.
"Ash, darling. Let go of Mommy. Come here. She's not going anywhere." Daddy told me as he lifted me up, off of Mommy.
"Tony, don't sugarcoat it for her. It's only gonna make it harder for you later. She needs to know that I'm going to die." Mommy said as she got off the bed and went to the closet.
"Die?! No! Mommy won't die! The hospital people are going to make her better and she's gonna come home again!" I yelled and squirmed in Daddy's hands. I didn't want Daddy. I wanted Mommy.
Mommy came out of the closet and grabbed her bag full of medicine. She goes to grab her purse but then stumbles short.
"Agh! Tony! I can't! The pain! It's too much!" Mommy cried out as she fell on her knees.
