THE BLEEDING HEARTS PROGRAM

TWELFTH TUTORIAL

Because he knew what it felt like to feel like a stranger.

"You want to choose the Netflix show? I'm good with anything. "
...

They were five episodes into The Resident but, Raphael had fallen asleep halfway through episode three. In that time, Junya had managed to get him to actually lay down under the covers so he'd be cozy and warm.

He had stopped paying attention to the show as Raphael was nodding off. It was the perfect time to stare at Raphael's features without shame or the fear of being caught.

Everyone told Junya he was pretty.

They compared his looks to his mother and often gushed over his soft features. But Raphael was so handsome to Junya.

He had a defined facial structure. Very intense eyes when he looked at you. His hair was really short - Junya didn't think he had the head shape to pull off short hair.  And... when Raphael really, really smiled, Junya thought he looked like the sun. From this close, Junya could see that the slit in Raphael's eyebrow was a small scar.

He was just so handsome.

Junya stared dreamily at the sleeping man as he leaned on his own forearms. He laughed to himself at the fact Raphael was frowning in his sleep.

Was was he dreaming about?

"What is he doing? I thought he was meant to keep you company."

"Dad," Junya hissed, "you're being so loud... get out please. You're gonna wake hyung up."

"Tell him to get up and get out. What were you thinking giving this bastard your bed to sleep in-"

"If you don't get out, I'm getting out of bed."

Junya and Jaehyun stared intently at each other before Jaehyun threw his hands in the air in mock surrender. He cursed under his breath before gently closing the door.

At the same time, he saw Raphael rub his face a bit as he started to sit up. He was so adorable with his eyes still closed trying to get himself together.

"What the hell you got in these pillows? They're so soft... was I asleep for long," he mumbled to himself patting around for his phone. Raphael was so comfortable that when he couldn't find it, he gave up and just laid back down.

"Were you tired Raphael," Junya asked gently pulling the cover over him again gently.

"My part time job is killing me," he complained kissing his teeth. "You just get to do nothing all day Junya, I'm so jealous. Have I ever told you? My dream is to retire early and do nothing."

"You'll be so bored," Junya smiled down. Raphael's eyes were still closed so he had longer to just look at his face. "You can do anything if you retire early."

"I want to do nothing. Just spend my days sleeping."

"Like a big cat at the zoo. I wanted to be an astronaut and then I wanted to play piano but, you know, my parents worry about everything."

"They're good people you know? They made sure you had these good ass pillows."

"It's because I was always sick as a kid and I was just in bed a lot."

Raphael stretched out his hand and laid it flat against Junya's chest. "Your heart rate feels fine, tell them they can relax. They don't need to worry so, you can go out there and explore Jupiter and Mars and shit."

Junya had learnt to read his heart rate when he was young.

He was practically an expert.

That is how he knew Raphael wasn't reading his properly. Just Raphael's hand on his body made his heart beat so fast, it felt like it was going to burst.

"I tell them all the time I'm better," Junya muttered blushing - the place Raphael touched still felt like it was on fire.

He wondered if this is how people who ran a marathon felt.

"They'll listen to you one day, don't worry," Raphael replied getting up for real that time. He rubbed his chest as he yawned making his sweater rise up a bit.

Junya tried not to ogle at the slight peek of his abs but, Raphael had slowly been turning his virgin mind to mush.
...

"Do you like that guy who comes and spends time with you?"

After Raphael had left, Jaehyun rushed to Junya's room under the pretence that he wanted to check on Junya.

Which was true but, he also had questions since """ game night about Junya and his tutor. He couldn't stand when people tried to bewitch his son.

He couldn't stand it.

"W-what," Junya stuttered slightly as he stared at his dad with wide eyes. "W-which guy?"

"Junya... Raphael. Your tutor. You like him, right?"

"Why are you asking that?"

"You're trying to go around in circles right now," Jaehyun joked poking his forehead. "You're a hundred years too early to get anything past me."

"I don't like him dad."

"I literally caught you staring at him like he was the most interesting thing in the world- what is so interesting about that bastard's sleeping face?"

"Dad, one, you can't tell anyone you saw that," Junya begged with eyes, "and two, you'll really like him if you stop looking at him like a cretin."

Jaehyun scoffed rolling his eyes. "I'm not handing you over to him, ever. He will have to offer me a the world and even then I'll just consider it."

"Dad, can't you settle for bride price or some thing- not that I'm expecting marriage or even a relationship! I'm just saying a world-"

Jaehyun rubbed Junya's head as he smiled softly. "You know, I often say you didn't inherit the skill to lie from my side of the family, right?"

"Yes," Junya nodded with an uneasy expression. "Why are you bringing that up?"

"Because you suck at lying."