Chaotically Organized Part 1

Build Strength

October 1st, 2024 

All I ever wanted was for you to admit what you've done wrong to me,

let me know that you understand that you've hurt me beyond simple words.

My heart desperately craved your accountability.

I have always known that we could never change the past,

but the least that you could have done was ask for my forgiveness.

No excuses, no lying, no deflecting, no stone cold wall.

Why was it so hard for you to give me a sincere and direct apology?

All you could do was become angry and tell me that I was the sole problem.

I desperately needed your honesty and emotion.

Don't tell me that it didn't happen,

or that we don't remember things the same way,

or that somehow this was all my fault.

I am not that weak anymore, 

You showed me that I needed to build strength around myself in your presence. 

I will no longer fall for your gaslighting and manipulation.