Knowing You {Kaisoo}

Chapter 1: Groceries

Jongin's POV:
Seriously Chanyeol? I had told him to buy milk over twenty times in the past two days and that idiot won't get off his lazy ass and get it. I would, but I have practice so much and honestly, I really just don't want to.
"Go get some milk!" I yell from the kitchen, my head buried in the small white fridge of our dorm we shared, slightly off campus.
"Fuck you Kai. You are out all the time, get it yourself." He replies from the couch, playing, yet again, another video game.
I groan in frustration and just decide to skip breakfast and head to class early, although 'early' wasn't something I necessarily did.
"Why the hell are you leaving right now?" He asks, his thin, tall frame hunched over in concentration, wearing an oversized shirt and boxers as I snatch the keys off the counter and examine my tan skin and brown hair, falling slightly to one side. I guess I looked okay. Enough, at least.
"I can't eat breakfast because you won't go and go to get the fucking milk you idiot!" I shout and he just keeps playing, ignoring my anger.
"You are so irritated by everything dude." He snickers and I open the front door, purposely leaving it open so he will have to get up and close it.
"Especially you." I walk away.
"I hate you!" He yells down the dorm hallway as I walk, spinning my keys on my finger, laughing.
I quickly flip him off as he shakes his head in disapproval and he walks back inside our dorm since his classes don't start for another two hours.

I actually like college quite a bit, yet as much as I tried to erase my past, high school screw ups, they followed me wherever I went. Including my biggest mistake. Do Kyungsoo. We met in high school as friends and I made the huge mistake of getting to know him, which lead to feelings, which led to the hell I experience every day around him. I am not gay, let's get that straight. I love girls but he is different.
Do Kyungsoo is a drug.
He is beautiful.
Strong.
Funny.
Sexy.
But mostly addictive.
I can't explain the way he makes me feel and it drives me crazy. It makes me angry because I don't hate anything more than being confused. I hate everything in the way of us, even though I know there will never be an us. Mai is his girlfriend. She is sweet and kind but I can't stand her.
"Hey Kai!" Chen comes up behind me as I walk through the parking lot, wrapping his arm around me.
"What the hell dude? You scared me man, Jesus." I sigh and look at him, his smile wide and inviting.
"Sorry," he laughs at me and I unlock my car by pressing the button on my keys, my black Vans sliding against the asphalt as I walk.
"Hey an you pick up some milk for me at the store?" I ask and his face twists in to a weird questioning look.
"Yeah, uh sure."
"Thanks man you are the best. Just give it to Chanyeol. He is in the dorm screwing around as always."I slide in to the driver's seat of my jet black car and start the ignition.
"Okay," he smiles and I shut the door and pull the seatbelt around my shoulders and hips, clicking it in to place as I pull out of my normal parking space.
I drive through Seoul until I reach my studio to pick up my things from last night's midnight dance session. I can still feel my legs burning from all the jumps I worked on, a rewarding yet painful way to start the week.
"You are back again?" I see Sam walk out of the front, swaying her hips to come in to the actual studio where I grabbed my bag.
"Forgot my bag," I stand up and she smiles, her black curly hair, creating an Afro almost.
"You were here for so long last night, literally you spend your entire life in here. When are you gonna get out and start this career man?" She slides her hand on her hip and pouts her full lips.
"I don't know," I sigh and run my fingers through my hair.
"Kai. You are good enough. Better than me and I made it big in New York for a long time." She smiles and I remember the first day she came here. I was so nervous because I didn't know whether or not she spoke Korean. I remember speaking broken English to her and her replying in clear, Korean. Funny how that works.
"I just don't know yet."
"You aren't going to know, but that's why it's called a risk. You have to learn how to accept the unknowing. Because then, and only then, you will know. Make sense?"
"Sure," I laugh and she pats my back.
"You are gonna be fine man. Just fine."
"See you later Sam," I wave and sling my bag over my shoulder.
"Don't come in tonight, take it off okay?"
"Fine." I repeat and walk out to my car, driving back to the campus of my university. People were walking with books and backpacks all around the fall school scene. It looked like something out of a movie until my dark brown eyes fell on the most beautiful part of the entire picture.
I really admired his eyes and lips. They were the most beautiful parts about him. He was perfect. Nothing about him was wrong or damaged. He was inviting. But I could not have him. Do Kyungsoo was anything but mine and I was just going to have to live with it.