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•̀✧ellie-rose•̀✧ now
I'm scared. I'm scared i've lost him, which is crazy because I always call him lost boy.
He's different, and so am i. And that makes me scared, what if we're different from before ? What if he doesn't act like before, what if he doesn't love me like before, what if i don't love him, but that's impossible i love lost boy and to be honest it's all i've been focusing on all this years, i love him
lost boy will always be lost boy especially to me, he's taller, more loving to the eyes, just looking at him gives me the love my mother never gave me,
He's raw, raw beauty and i never believed i'd call a boy-man beauty, but he is, he's too gorgeous to be simply called handsome, his beauty his simply outstanding his face all of him is special, it makes me wonder
Why me ? why was i separated from him ? why didn't someone else face that ? why was our tale different ?
Lost boy hasn't even lost an ounce of love from me, he's only gained more, he's soundly fine which shatters me, the worst thing i found out was that he's fine
Was it simply his choice to leave me ? i'm scared to ask the reason, i'm scared he'll reply and i'm scared he's answer would be he simply didn't care to come
i'll have to admit it'll be embarrassing to see me cry as a little girl being told she isn't wanted by the one person who'll never be rejected by her if he says i'm sorry i'm not going to be able to handle it i hope he doesn't,
'i still love you lost boy'
'hopefully you love me too'
******
𝓲𝓽 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓼𝓷𝓸𝔀𝓲𝓷𝓰
"Mum it's winter!" snow's falling around the garden area!
We're at my mum's boyfriend place it's simply the worst
And azerine is just plain out mean, she's worse than all the bullies combined, she does something none of them have been able to do ignite the flame
She makes me angry just by a smile, anytime she puts on that fake cry i just can't help but want to sink my fingers in her throat and suffocate her with her hair
i hope one day i will be able to look at her with the same colour of hair as me, it'll be the worst well, at least for her
she says she finds my hair disgusting, is it ? she says i shouldn't be there i always agree with that but that infuriates her, that i don't care for her little fictional realm, well too bad azerine i'll never want you or your life talk less of being apart of it
my life is a book of stickers, water, gems, butterflies, loving animations and bugs
Azerine and her family are the bugs, it makes me laugh that i said her family but it's true they are her family not mine and that's the only good news i've heard from her,
"miss bre- i mean mum i-if i can call you that ?" azerine speaks with a sweet fake smile on her little face feigning innocence, i don't play mind games lost boy's probably good at that so i don't really care i'm not and that's all azerine does, mind games
"of course you can honey" my mum speaks to azerine as they rejoice each other's company and it came time to share accomplishments
"i was the highest in mathematics in all my years" i speak quickly as much as steadily as i raise my voice a little, azerine immediately sparks up some tears for zero reason making me definitely mad and i've never gotten mad for this kind of thing
"H-how? she knows i did really poorly and she made fun of me when we were together, why speak of it again ellierose ?"
"You said you hated me fine! But why add more to the pain i try to cover? is it because i called her mum?
fine i'll do as you ask and leave! she's your family not mine"she speaks in rage and my mother stares at me with hate and i rise up to speak, i'm immediately yanked into their hall walking through a large hallway and immediately slammed into and empty room and i start leaking out tears
it's dark and i don't stay nor sleep in the dark without lostboy
i used him to cheat sleeping in the dark he was my light and now i'm locked here without him
i stay there for what is at least three hours and finally crawl myself against the floor weakly as i spent my strength weeping and finally unto a rug,
i hear some noise in my weak state that probably looks like i'm sleeping almost dead and the door is pulled open
"ew father i thought she was in her mother's room, she stained my floors dad and it's pure white! But now it's sticky on my shoes" she complains as her father turns on the high light switch and she fully has no idea i was thrown to weep on the floor,
She did that to show supiority but one thing's for sure i'll get her back
but not in a way it'll affect me, she lied on me once she will again and one thing's for sure she's not ever going to push me to my limit
'i said that but yet she filled my cup pouring'
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i definitely don't think her mother is dumb enough to believe someone like ellierose will ever be the bully...
