Diary of Llaine's Life

Diary 1

This is my first time writing this story, so I believe you need to know me first.

I'm Llaine, a 19-year-old turning 20 on June 18. I was born on June 18, 2004. By the way, I'm already in my second year of college and I'm taking AB Political Science. I was previously studying BS Accountancy, but something unfortunate happened, so I had to shift to this course without any choice.

I'm a middle child. I have four siblings, but unfortunately, my two siblings have passed away; one girl and one boy. They died before they were born. Therefore, I have only two siblings left, both of whom are girls. My older sister's name is Lai, and my younger sister's name is Ina.

My parents' names are Lar and Lay - Lar is our father, and Lay is our mother. My father works as a Lineman at an electrical cooperative, while my mother is a housewife. Additionally, she runs a small business in pig farming.

I have four best friends named Lyn, Wanda, Jess, and MJ. They are from our country, Occidental Mindoro. I met some of them during high school, like Wanda and Lyn, while others, like Jess and MJ, have been my childhood best friends. They are all girls because I don't seem to get along well with boys. I also find myself leaning towards disliking men, although I'm not sure why. It's just how I feel.

I have never ventured into relationships or dated anyone. The concept of having a crush on someone has always eluded me. This has made me question whether I might identify as asexual or if I am simply a late bloomer in matters of romance. However, what I am certain of is my identity as a straight girl, albeit with a strong aversion towards men. My experiences have led me to harbor feelings of animosity towards the male gender, although the reasons behind this sentiment remain unclear to me. In my aspirations for the future, all I truly desire is a life of peace and tranquility, devoid of the emotional turmoil caused by boys who may only seek to toy with my heart.

This are my golden line: "All I can say is, don't play with me, because playing with me is like killing yourself. I also get even in everything, but in a devilish way. So, don't make me play your game, because I'll do everything just to win."