•minsung oneshots•

rescue pt2💔💕

"...jisung." the firefighter spoke softly, his eyes roaming over jisung's face now he was finally close to him again. "what, um..what are you doing here?"

"oh!" quickly turning around, jisung bent down to the floor before lifting up a box of what looked to be from a sweet shop which he lightly gestured with in his hands. "i brought these as a thank you for...for saving my life," he admitted with a slightly small voice before he seemed to clear his head and hold a gentle smile to joke, "but it seems like you and your team might already have enough desserts..."

while minho was still lost for words, jisung placed the box down on an empty chair before giving a small shrug.

"i also didn't get to thank you directly, minho. i was kinda out of it when you found me," he again tried to lighten the mood though minho could see he wasn't quite over the scare by how his shoulders weren't as relaxed. "and well...it's been a while, huh?"

noticing how the ending to his words had been quieter than the rest, minho rolled back his shoulders and tried to follow his usual routine of meeting the people who he'd saved previously.

"thank you for coming here to do so, jisung." minho politely smiled before it felt a little too hard to pretend his heart wasn't close to bursting out of his chest. "but although it's greatly appreciated that you went to this trouble, it's all just part of my job to help."

it was quiet for a brief moment until jisung seemed to give a weak chuckle as he slowly nodded his head.

"yeah, i-i know," came his small response as jisung wrapped his arms around his body and sighed. "i guess i'm just...sorry?"

"sorry?" frowning, minho repeated jisung's words as he subconsciously took a step towards the younger. "no, no you have nothing to be sorry for, jisung! it's absolutely not your fault that you got trapped because of the fire-"

"-i, i don't mean that." jisung interrupted, successfully rendering minho speechless as he straightened up his body and tried to understand what jisung was referring to.

"oh..."

biting his lip, jisung's eyes were flicking between minho and the floor as he took a deep breath before speaking again.

"i um...i meant i'm sorry about how things turned out with us..."

minho felt as though all the wind had been knocked out of his lungs as he stared at jisung, mouth slightly agape as he tried to process what had just been said.

"...u-us?"

curling into his body, jisung gave another light nod as tears began to cloud his vision.

"i-i just...fuck, i don't know. when i woke up surrounded by paramedics i could have sworn that all i was thinking about was you. not the fire, not how scared i was, but you...and then i was between two sides wondering if i was thinking of you because you were the one who saved me or if..." his eyes slowly met minho's as he let out a long sigh. "if i was hoping it had been you."

watching how minho stayed silent, jisung felt the tears becoming more prominent even though he tried desperately to ignore them.

"it just made me think about how i broke off such a wonderful relationship with you because i was so fucking scared, minho. i will always be sorry for that but i just...i just couldn't deal with the constant fear of you putting yourself in danger. whenever you'd leave at night i wouldn't be able to sleep until you were back or i knew you were safe, and it was just so exhausting and i just hated feeling like that. i thought i was doing the right thing but i..." he seemed to pause for a minute before he let out a quiet groan and forced himself to continue. "...i still lost you."