crimson red.
everywhere.
blood.
on the walls
the floor
the roof
my fingers
my hair
my clothes
his clothes
his hair
the knife
everywhere.
"what have you done."i shoot awake, my hand grabbing at my shirt, taking deep breath's in and out. my gaze snaps to novas bed, and i sigh in relief when i see that i didn't wake her up.
slowly and surely, i get out of my bed. dammit ayda this is why you don't sleep.
it makes me feel like a fucking kid, still having nightmares about my past, my thoughts on a never ending cycle, exploring the hundred different ways that, that day could've ended, yet i still chose the one i did.
i walk over to the bathroom, deciding to take a quick shower since i was drenched in sweat. i wash my body, not my hair.
i'm in and out of the shower in five minutes, quickly brushing my teeth and my hair. i don't give a shit about todays outfit. it's a saturday, all i'll be doing today is shopping, like i do most saturday's, and nova will be with her family.
i throw on my uggs, brown sweatpants, and a white tank top. sitting back down in my bed, noticing the time reads 7:30am.
that's fine, i'll wait at the cafe a little early. besides, sometimes whoever's working opens early.
shoving my airpods in my ear, i decide to be a masochist today and play i bet on losing dogs by mitski. shoving my phone into my back pocket, i make my way to the cafe.
i walk extra slow today, so when i do arrive at the cafe, maybe it'll actually be open. when i'm within eyes reach with the cafe, i find a clock on the wall, seeing 7:49am on it, and i groan.
please be open early, please be open early, please be open early.
squeezing my eyes shut for only a second, i walk up to the cafe, slowly cursing life when i see it is opened early, by the one and only, jake.
i walk up to the counter, double tapping my left airpod so my music pauses. "vanilla coke, and a waffle with a scoop of vanilla ice cream." i mutter, not looking into his eyes.
"what was that?" he asks, and i narrow my eyes. he's staring at the cash register instead of me, when he gets a glance at me, he does a double take, looking me up and down.
"jesus" he mumbles. okay, so i put zero effort into my appearance, today is one of those days. he starts putting in my order, so clearly he did fucking hear me.
i use my phones apple pay, then making my way to a bean bag, which has one small circular table in front of it.
i throw my elbows onto the table, and slam my head into my palms, rethinking all my life decisions. i sit there like that for atleast ten minutes, i'm sure jake had already set my food onto the table, but didn't mutter a word.
eventually, i lift my head up, a squeal leaving my throat when i come face to face with dominic. "what are you doing here!" i whisper-shout. stupid question, considering the man works here.
"what's wrong?" he ignores me completely. "what?" i ask, tilting my head to the side curiously and his gaze darkens for a second.
"you're upset, why?"i cant tell him the truth, so instead, i lie.
"i just don't see us having that future you so desperately want us to have" the words cautiously leave my mouth, and he replies "we'll go see a fucking eye doctor later" not a silver of joke in his tone, and i swat his shoulder, "i'm being serious!"
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empire of lust (scotia springs #1)
Romancei, ayda winters, have a secret. one that no one knows, one that i don't plan on telling anyone. yet one that plagues my thoughts everyday. i told myself i'd never love, not after what i've seen, what i grew up around. though that was before domini...