After me | divergent

1 | meeting Tobias again

"I told you not to come after me. I told you to fucking stay in abnegation. What are you doing here beatrice?!"

The day was finally there. Choosing day, i was finally going to be free. When i take a quick look in the mirror i see that i have a bruise under my eye just above my cheek. It's not as bad as the ones on my arms and wrists.. I hear my mom calling me from downstairs and i get up from my bed, i can't cover up the bruise because i've never had concealer to do it. We were not allowed to use makeup, so that nobody would notice us. We had to always keep ourselves lower than the others, i didn't like this lifestyle at all.

I walked down the stairs and i saw my mother stand by the front door. My brother and father were nowhere to be seen, they must have already left. "I'm ready," i said when i had my shoes on. My mother was looking at my face like she was examining me, she must've seen my bruise. "I accidentally walked into the door."

"Beatrice, that doesn't look like you walked into a door. When did it happen and who did this to you?" My mother was really concerned about it, but how could i possibly tell her that the guy they thought was good for me to marry had actually beaten me up a few times? I couldn't even tell them i didn't want to marry him because they would say i was being stupid. It wouldn't be smart of me not to marry that psychopath because in their eyes he was the best guy in abnegation and all the girls would want to marry him. He was the golden son in law they could imagine. Only if we were not alone of course.

"Mom don't worry, it's nothing."

She didn't believe me, i saw it in her eyes. But for now she shrugged it off and we both left the house. I looked back as if i would never come back, i will not miss this place. I will not. I will be free, although i will miss my mother. We started walking towards the place where the choosing ceremony would take place when suddenly a voice called my name.

"Beatrice!" It was him. The psychopath that i will never see anymore when everything's over and i will be switching to dauntless. "I will see you after the ceremony, i have some things to talk with you. If that's also alright with you of course miss prior."

My mother must've seen me get tense when i saw him. She saw how scared i became when he called my name, i know from the mimicking on her face. Her one eyebrow slowly went up like she was trying to understand why. "Of course. See you in two hours Leo," she said and we both turned around and started walking again. "Why didn't you say anything to him?"

"You answered him already. It was not my place to answer him."

She turned her head away from me and kept walking for a few more minutes before she stopped and turned to me. "I would never want you to leave us, me. And until now i never thought about you leaving. But..." she tried to keep eye contact but i saw her eyes get watery. "Leave Beatrice. Free yourself from this place, the most important thing for me is for you to be happy. Don't even look back and leave."

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I chose dauntless. I hugged my mother one last time and did not look back for a second. I was finally free of the beating, i was finally going to live the life i deserved. I'm already healing. I feel my whole body healing. When i was the first initiate to jump into the dauntless compound Christina - the girl i met jumping on and off the train - was shocked. This is the first time i can be myself, i was taking all the chances i could.

"Are you going to jump or do you want someone to push you in?" Said the leader named Eric. He had tattoos all over his body, which i didn't like very much. There are some things i still have to get used to. I nod and let myself fall down, a little scared of what was down there where i jumped. I was surprised to find out that i fell into a net. I was relieved and started laughing that i was still alive.