Never again

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After mine and Maddison's chaotic breakup I left because I couldn't handle the thought that me and her are not together anymore and it was also a small town we would definitely cross paths at some point and I don't think my heart could've handle the pain in my chest looking into her baby blue eyes

It's been 5 years since I last saw here eye to eye

Till this day I still love her, I know that I shouldn't have left without talking to her but I needed space and my grandparents wanted to see me so I just made it a plan to move in with my them in Italy

Since I've been here I would have to learn how to defend myself and the people I love, how to manage a gun, and other stuff that I think most people already know

Since my grandparents are rich I have the opportunity to see what is going on in Maddison's life ever since I've turned 20 I hired some men to keep track on her

Trust me when I say I've tried to move on but I just can't its like my body only wants her I've tried to sleep with other women but my little friend doesn't get excited or when he does they always have to ruin it because, most of my tattoos are about Maddison I have her lips, name, birthday, eyes, and much more, they always want to know who is on my skin and then I don't do anything with them because I just get sad or angry that she's not here instead of them

The only way I have her lips is because I've managed to get one of my men to collect a napkin she used to wipe her lipstick on when she was drunk in a bar

I am currently looking at her through a camera some of my men set up in her apartment

I know it sound creepy but I don't give two shits she's mine and I need to know if someone is trying to get at what's mine

It has happened before but like I said I keep track on her

She's sitting down on her couch studying to be a doctor

My girl is smart she will pass this test if not I'll make sure she does

I've thought about going to see her but I always chickened out thinking that she don't want me because I left her, she doesn't live far from me it's just that felling in your gut that their is something wrong

I need to get her attention but I don't know how

Just then was the moment that I had and idea on how I was going to get Maddison to be with me

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It's been a month since my plan has started I just need her and it is complete

I'm the last month she took her test and passed without my help like I said before my girl is smart, now that she is a doctor my plan is about to finish

Hopefully she won't hate me for this

I love her