What is Reality? - Killugon (GI x HxH)

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(Gon POV)

"And yeah, for most of the time me and Venti traveled together, it was pretty fun actually, he taught me loads of survival tips and things, I'm glad I met him." I finish explaining And Killua is staring at me, I think he's perhaps zoned out, did I make it too complicated?

I, embarrassed just grab the box of robots and put it right in front of his face "here... I got these for you on the way..." I say kinda embarrassed handing it to him and Killua looks at them until he giggles "Awe Gon, you actually got those for me? I can't believe you actually remembered I like them, that's so nice of you... damn, I should i of brought something for you too" He sighs a little shameful making me smile a little, I place my hand on his shoulder "don't worry about it Killua, we only just met, it's been 9 years, do not  pressure yourself about it too much" I reassure him, I don't want him feeling bad about it, plus, he probably was busy and couldn't do anything unlike me. So it's okay.

I give Killua a warm smile and he smiles back "Thanks Gon, your a lot more understanding than others and from back then. I'm almost not used to seeing you like this, you changed a lot more than I have, even if it's not physically it's the way you talk, I genuinely like you like this, also I did not zone out I was listening to you talk" Killua laughs and it's almost 9AM, "Killua, are you doing anything today? You seem like a kind of a busy person" I ask Killua and to my surprise he respond with "No actually, Gon. What made you think I'm busy?" He responds and I uh.. "Really? I don't know.. I just thought because you just look like the type who has loads of work to do... and plus... you're still a hunter right?" I look down a little from Killua, unsure on what to say "Yeah? I still am a hunter indeed Gon, how come do you ask? Are you still a hunter... Gon..?" He asked me if I was a Hunter still.. I don't know if I should tell him about me being able to use elements from teyvat, it's risky. Even though I do trust Killua, what if someone else hears? Or maybe he tells other people because I forget to ask him to not tell anyone else? What if-  

Words start to repeat in my head
He would kill you.
He would leave you for dead
He would kill you.
He would leave you for dead
He would kill you.
He would leave you for dead
He would kill you
He would leave you for dead
He would kill you
Leave you for dead
Like your father——

I put my hands over my ears, hitting my head, to the point I see blood dripping everywhere

"GON?! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?—"

Shut up. ₴ⱧɄ₮ Ʉ₱.

I see the vision again. Deformation . Did I seriously just do that? I look at my hands and I see blood everywhere, dripping... what?

I turn my head and I see Killua is looking at me in horror "Gon—"
I create another levitating shard out of cryo, taking Killua aback, "Gon what are you going to do-"

I pierce it through his head except he doesn't die nor bleed

What?

Did I just?
Did I just hurt him?

D҉̣͍̓̎͗͜͜i҉̧̯̤̙͔̑ͧ̅̔ͦ́͜͟͢͝͠d҉̴̷̧̢̛̖͔̤ͯ̔̑̄͢͟͡͠ I҉̡̯̺̜̅́͋̃͢͜ ǰ̸̶̭͓͓̀̈́͜͟ͅu̶͖̖͆̊̈́͡͡s҉̝̭̦͚̑ͯ̌͡t҉̷҉̢͖͔̹͛̌͊͘͜͢͠͡͡ h̷̶̘̘̬ͭ̏͞͡u̶͖̖͆̊̈́͡͡r҉̵҉̛̠̩̥̋ͦ̆͆͟͞͡͞͠t҉̷҉̢͖͔̹͛̌͊͘͜͢͠͡͡ h̷̶̘̘̬ͭ̏͞͡i҉̧̯̤̙͔̑ͧ̅̔ͦ́͜͟͢͝͠m̴̵҉̸̲̗̰̼͗͌̃̇͟͟͟͠͞͠..?

B̵̴҉̞̠̘̩͍̱́͊͗͜͠͠͠͠e̵̡̫̫͍͕̎ͭ̐͟͟͝͞h̷̶̘̘̬ͭ̏͞͡i҉̧̯̤̙͔̑ͧ̅̔ͦ́͜͟͢͝͠n̸͐̈́͟͟͝d҉̴̷̧̢̛̖͔̤ͯ̔̑̄͢͟͡͠ ȳ̸̵̩̜͔͍̔́͟͟͢͡o҉̢̡̲͇̌͗̀͢͝u̶͖̖͆̊̈́͡͡.

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Some of Gons little mental malfunctions <3
He's slowly losing sanity
Sometimes he uses his element, to put it through a persons head, and it makes them go back in time, so nothing happened. Gon is afraid of revealing things, especially some things from Teyvat
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"Killua, are you doing anything today? You seem like a kind of a busy person" I ask Killua and to my surprise he respond with "No actually, Gon. What made you think I'm busy?" He responds and I uh.. "Really? I don't know.. I just thought because you just look like the type who has loads of work to do... and plus... you're still a hunter right?" I look down a little from Killua, unsure on what to say "Yeah? I still am a hunter indeed Gon, how come do you ask? Are you still a hunter... Gon..?" He asks taking me aback a little, I take a few moments to respond and then I turn my head to look at Killua. "I... I'm sorry but I ended the dream of me being a hunter. I can't use Nen anymore remember?" I say in a plain tone and then Killua replies with "Oh... is that so.. what about Ging?" He looks at me again "Ging? That B̵̴҉̞̠̘̩͍̱́͊͗͜͠͠͠͠a҉͖̟̜̞̂̃̑̽͢͢͠͡s҉̝̭̦͚̑ͯ̌͡t҉̷҉̢͖͔̹͛̌͊͘͜͢͠͡͡a҉͖̟̜̞̂̃̑̽͢͢͠͡r҉̵҉̛̠̩̥̋ͦ̆͆͟͞͡͞͠d҉̴̷̧̢̛̖͔̤ͯ̔̑̄͢͟͡͠  —-" I cough and then I give him a embarrassed smile "sorry, i don't know what happened with my voice there, but anyway, No, Ging left me a while ago because he thought I was useless because I was powerless." I put my hand on my chin it let it rest there while leaning my elbow on the arm of the bench and Killua gives me an apologetic look "Damn.. I'm sorry about that Gon, are you okay now though? Have you tried learning Nen again? Or is it just completely sealed away from you now?" And I nod my head "yeah, I can't learn it again." Killua gives me a shameful look "Damn. That seriously sucks Gon." He gives me a slightly annoyed look before he speaks again

"Gon. Only if you let me help you—"

"I know Killua. I know I should have let you help me fight Pitou. I know I am selfish. I regret it. I could have asked you guys for help, I wouldn't have ended up like this....." I become silent for a few moments "sometimes I wish I was the one to die that night" I look down using all of my might to hold back my tears. It's rather stupid.
"Gon. What the heck?... listen. Please don't ever say that again, I'm glad I still have you here. I don't know what I would do if I found out you died, if alluka couldn't save you or I didn't make it in time I would never forgive myself, your so important to me Gon you don't understand it." Killua puts his hand on mine and then he brings me into a hug "I don't want to lose you again" he whispers into my ear and I start to become a little shaky, but I suck it up and hug him back "I'm sorry I said that." I respond to him and Killua squeezes me harder. "Its okay, don't be sorry" we stay silent like this for a few more minutes until we pull away "im sorry again, i didnt mean to ruin the mood or anything" I apologise "Hey Gon, listen, you didnt ruin anything, its okay, alright?" He reassures and I nod my head

Killua laughs a little and stands up "come on Gon, it's almost 10AM which means more places should have opened up now, how about we go on a walk around the city?" Killua puts his hand on his waist and I respond "sure why not?"

"Great! Come let's go Gon" Killua drags me up from the bench to make me come along. And that's when our uhh lovely walk starts around the city, I actually haven't been able to see around very much, especially its change in the last 9 years so hopefully it should be exciting

(Also when Killua asked Gon about Ging, when Gon was talking to Killua about his past a little when he was in Teyvat he made it more simple and didn't mention the more personal things like the distortions or him crying, he told him that he just ended up in Teyvat because he felt something grab him and he thudded, spoke how he met venti and travels with him now whenever he's in Teyvat and how he taught him things, how to get through on a daily basis and the functions)