Voices Inside My Head

A Daughter's Dilemma

As a daughter raised by a single mom,

Navigating men's minds felt like a conundrum.

I set a standard, a lofty goal,

No one has reached it, as stories unfold.

Dating boys to test the waters,

See if they're capable heart supporters.

Yet, disappointments met me along the way,

Growing distant, my heart began to sway.

Craving a love that I want, not just need,

Shattered by the first man, love decreed.

Despite their pursuits, I remain unsatisfied,

Building walls, my emotions are fortified.

Caught in a cycle of self-destruction,

As they try to fix, a futile construction.

Destroying them slowly, I cannot bear,

This relationship, a weight to bear.

I desire to love you the way you seek,

But self-care beckons, my resolve not weak.

Promises waver as I grapple with me,

Setting you free, setting us free.

No more assurances can I impart,

I want to mend, not break your heart.

Setting us free, a painful decree,

For a healthier future, just wait and see.

This isn't about love grown cold,

But a quest for freedom, truth be told.

Not the right time, perhaps someday,

Understanding, I hope paves our way.