Unlikely Mistake ✔

Mistake.38 - Baby

I badly want to see you baby... Please don't cry. -- I want so much to tell her those words, but I can't.

How am I supposed to make her feel better? I want to make her feel better! Gustong gusto ko nang magakit sa sarili ko dahil wala man lang akong magawa!

She's close to me, I can feel her warmth, I can hear her voice yet I feel like she's too far for me to reach. I want to hold her again. To kissed her again but I can't! I want to talk to her about our baby, but i can't! This is so frustrating! I feel like I'm about to cry too.

I kept on trying and trying and trying to open my eyes but my eyelids felt heavy. I tried to move my fingers or even a muscle but they won't buldge. My body felt so damn heavy. Na para bang gawa sa bato ang buong katawan ko.

She said something again, but I can't understand her. Then I felt a warm tingling sensation on lips. It was so familiar that it makes me think that she kissed me. And if I can just open my fucking eyes and makes my body moved I would definitely kissed her back... Senseless!

I already missed her so bad!

Sinubukan kong muli na ibuka ang bibig ko para mag-salita. To tell her that I'm okay. That I love her. That I won't die without seeing my son. Without marrying her. Pero walang nangyari, hindi ko maibuka ang bibig ko o maigalaw man lang. And I'm hating it. It is so damn frustrating!

If I can, I want to beat the hell out of myself for being this pathetic. Dahil wala akong magawa para sa kanya.

Hindi ko na naman namalayang muli akong nakatulog... mas tamang sabihin tinangay na naman ang diwa ko sa kung saan. Hanggang sa muli akong makaraninig ng mga boses sa paligid ko.

"I feel sorry for Cheyne. Having to go through those painful labor without the guys who impregnated her. Tsk tsk."

"If this go on, pag hindi pa rin sya gumising for the next hour he'll be missing a lot... Memorable things such as being there for his first born son. Pagsisisihan nyang hindi masaksihan ang pag-silang ng anak nila."

Hindi ko masyadong maintindihan ang pinagu-usapan nila but for some unknown reason my heart suddenly beat erratically. Like I'm about to missed something so important.

I tried waking up. But my eyes still felt heavy, though this time I moved a finger. And I got this feeling that I can finally woke up because of that.

And so I tried again. Slowly.., so slowly I cracked my eyes open though I have to shut it half way because I was blinded by light. I couldn't help but groaned nang maramdaman ko na ang bigat ng katawan at ulo ko.

Again, kahit mabigat ang pakiramdam ng mga mata ko ay dahan-dahan kong binuksan ang mga ito, bumaling rin ako sa gilid para iwasan ang liwanag. Sa una ay malabo pa ang paningin ko, pero hindi naman nag-tagal at luminaw na rin ito.

Una kong napansin ang nanlalaking mata at gulat na mukha nina Red at Gray. They are looking at me as if I'm some kind of alien with multiple heads.

Sinubukan kong magsalita para kausapin sila but my tongue felt numb and my throat felt dry, though I still manage to utter a word.

"W-Water."

"Holy shit! You're finally awake!"

"Oh my God! Gising kana! How are you?!" Sabay na sigaw ng magkapatid. I can't help but close my eyes. Because they're too loud! For Christ sake!

Agad na tumawag ng doctor si Gray while Red gave me a sip of water. While waiting for the doctor I asked Red question about Cheyne and our Baby at kung bakit wala sila dito. But Red won't answer me, she keep on avoiding my question and changing the topic.