First Glance

Prologue

She sighed tiredly as she slumped her body to the table, she looks so tired; I mean, she's really tired.

Kahit na hindi ito magsabi mahahalata naman sa katawan at mga mata nito ang pagod, mataas lang talaga ang pride nito. Isa sa pinakaayaw ko sa kanya, but I love her nevertheless.

"Yve, you need some rest too." I muttered as I push her foods towards her.

Kaming dalawa lang ngayon dito dahil si Shantelle absent at may sakit ito, dadalawin ko nalang mamaya pagkatapos ng klase ko.

"Thanks, Sary." Pasalamat nito at umayos na sa pagkakaupo. "Dapat pinuntahan mo nalang si Shans sa kanila para kamustahin ito, kaya ko naman bumili ng pagkain dito eh." Kalaunay wika nito.

Here she goes again,

Bumuntong-hininga ako saka marahan na umiling. "Sinabihan ko na si Shans na mamayang hapon ako pupunta sa kanila, wala akong tiwala sayo na kakain ka ngayon lalo na't alam kong kakagaling lang sa sakit ni Saphire kaya alam kong wala kang pera ngayon."

She pouted. "Thank you, Sary. I love you and Shantelle."

And I love you, too.

"We love you too."

It's been a year since we became friends with her, she was being bullied before and secretly I was helping to shoo her bully away, fortunately, little by little I managed most of them to stop them from bullying her.

She's a scholar here that's why she has a lot of bully, most students here thinks that every scholar here are slut.

Na umaasa lang daw sila sa sports at varsity na sinasalihan nila.

But nope, they were wrong.

Yvette is different.

I saw how she struggle through life, I even hired private investigator to know about her life, and there I know that she was really struggling in life.

And then day by day when I'm secretly watching her, I suddenly felt something,

My heart suddenly beats for her.

So, I make a move and asks her to be our tutor, well, I'm really dumb in maths, Shans too, but not as dumb as me.

And then right there we became best of friends, me, Shantelle and her.

Months in our friendship I was about to ask and pursue her but then I saw how close we were as friends, I know she loves me but the love she gave me is the same the love she gave towards Shans.

Sisterly love. Ouch

I know by then that if ever I'm going to pursue her I'm just gonna ruined our friendship.

So, here I am now, still trying to forget this feelings I have for her.

I don't even know if I can, though.

3 years later...

Finally in my second year of college, I can't wait to finally graduate and pursue fashion designing in Paris.

BS-Fashion Design is my dream.

Well, after senior high, I was supposed to pursue fashion designing in Paris, that's the plan... but my heart choose to stay here in Philippines.

Yeah, I choose to be with my friends and her.

I know I should've choose to stay away and move on from her but I couldn't help myself. It feels like that there's a string between us that keep pulling me towards her.

It's been 3 years already and I'm still trying to forget this feelings I have for her. I even tried tinder and meet people that is below my standards so I could forget but it didn't work out.

Sinubukan ko naman lumayo sa kanya pero si Shantelle naman yung parating naglalapit sa amin, kaya wala akong nagawa kundi ang magtiis.

Mabuti nalang at walang interes sa kahit na sino si Yve kaya hindi ko man lang naranasan yung sinasabi nilang 'selos'.

"Miss are you gonna buy that or not?"

Nabalik ako sa ulirat ng ako na pala ang susunod sa pila, andito ako sa ngayon sa Alfamart bumibili ng ice cream pampa-boosts ng mood ko.

When period came, mood swings strike.

"I'm sorry po." Hingi ko ng pasensya sa babaeng nasa likuran ko ng hindi ito tinitignan saka binigay sa cashier ang binili kong ice cream para bayaran.

Nang matapos ko ng bayaran ito ay hindi ko na ito pinabalot dahil sa sasakyan ko nalang kakainin.

"Ay naku, sorry po ulit!" Hingi ko ng pasensya at bahagyang yumuko ng matamaan ng braso ko ang babaeng nakasunod sa akin sa pila na babae.

"It's alright, forgiven." Malamig na sagot nito.

Nang mag-angat ako ng tingin ay para akong napako sa aking kinatatayuan ng matunghayan ko ito.

Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari pero bigla na lamang may humaplos sa puso ko at parang may nagwawala sa loob ng tiyan ko.

'What the hell is happening?' I thought as I start walking away dumbfounded, leaving that certain girl behind.

Hanggang sa makarating ako sa aking sasakyan ay siya parin ang nasa isip ko, hindi ko narin masyadong na-eenjoy ang kinakain kong ice cream dahil parang minimemorize ng utak ko ang mukha nito.

I unconciously hold my chest when my hearts start beating calmly.

I feel so at ease.