'Only Time Will Tell How I End Up'

Chapter 11

Willow's P.O.V

I sent Xavier fakely downstairs when Vally went to bed and then I brought him back up and cozied with him under the covers. I fall more in love with this boy every second. I feel like ive known him forever. Like I can be comfortable around him. I just wish I could tell him I love him. It would make everything so much easier to deal with. I kissed his chest softly and sighed lightly. I just wish he knew how I felt. I felt him put his chin on top of my head and sigh loudly. I looked up at him and kissed his chin. I can show him a little about how I feel as long as I dont chicken out. I smiled at him and he just looked at me like he couldn't figure something out. I sighed and rolled over scooting over on the bed a little bit I guess he didnt feel the same way about me that I did him.

"Willow why'd you move?" He asked lightly. I just sighed and ignored the question. If he couldnt figure it out then he is dense.

"Willow come on love just answer me." He poked my side.

"I like you okay!" I covered my hand with my mouth and my eyes got as huge as lemurs eyes. I CANT BELIEVE I JUST SAID THAT!!!! I know he doesnt feel the same way!!! Omg omg omg?!?! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?!?!? STUPID MOTHER FRIGGEN MOTHER OF LIFE SAVERS!!! That just ruined everything weve built up so far. Were probably going to be ruined now and I cant do a thing about it. I got up out of bed and tried to run to the bathroom. But I didnt get far before I fell over because of my leg and hurt my ribs from the crash. I broke down crying from the pain and curled up in fetal position. I cant believe I just humiliated myself like that.

"Willow? Come on babe dont cry." Wait did he just say babe? Omg he said babe. Thats amazing! I looked up at him with my tearstained eyes and rubbed the tears away. I tried to sit up and hissed in pain. I guess falling doesnt make your ribs hurt any less eh? He picked me up gently and I held up my whimper in pain. He didnt need to know I was hurting. I smiled up at him as he sent me gently in the warm area and laid next to me. I smiled and scooted a little away from him. I mean I dont know if he likes me or if hes just being nice? The world may never know.

"Well Willow what you said was big... And I k-kinda..... Like.. you tooo...." His voice came out no louder then a whisper at the end. And I smiled. I scooted back over to him and kissed him full on the lips just like ive been wanting to do. Just like ive been needing to do. I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck as he climbed gently on top of me keeping his weight off of me slightly. I ran my hands down his back and let out a breathy moan as he kissed right under my jaw and sucked on the skin a little. I ran my hands over his a** and smiled when I felt the very existent bulge in his pants. I giggled and rubbed against him slightly to tease him. I still like to think of myself as a virgin because the guy stole my innocence I didnt let him have it. I giggled and pulled his face lips back to mine. I smiled because I knew tomorrow was saturday and I could sleep in and not have to worry about anything. I think doc personally let me out on a Friday so I wouldnt have to go to school for 2 days. I smiled and felt him shift his happy friend so I couldnt feel him anymore.

"Xavier when was the last time you had... Well you know..??" I asked biting my lip and blushing. He smirked cockily at me and I blushed even harder.

"Well I would say around 3 and a half months ago. When I realized I liked you and wanted to change for you so that I could somehow have a chance." It was his turn to blush this time and I smirked. I ran my hands over his a** and slid them into the line of his pants.

"Willow. I dont want you to do anything you'll regret."

"Oh just shut up and kiss me you big lug. I wont regret this because I... love you...." I mumbled.

He smirked "what was that? I couldnt hear you. Could you repeat it louder this time."

I sighed "I said... I ... Love,..you?" I said a little louder.