Nang makasakay na ako sa loob ng kotse niya ay may nilagay siyang denim jacket sa hita ko. Nakita ko rin kung paano niya hininaan ang aircon, maybe because he is being considerate of what I'm wearing. Tanging shorts at manipis lang na T-shirt ang suot ko.
The atmosphere between us seemed so nerve-wrecking. I don't know how to act infront of him without being nervous. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ito nagsimula at hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya. But there is one thing that I am sure of.
This isn't love.
I don't believe in love nor loyalty so do being faithful. You can say it but can't even do it. For me love is not real, it is just simply there so that humans can have fantasy. The fantasy of being loved and cared.
Jandrik is busy driving while I'm busy staring at him. I'm trying to rationalize what I'm feeling right now. Para bang nagkakarera ang mga kabayo sa loob ng dibdib ko dahil sa sobrang bilis ng tibok nito.
Winala ko ang paninitig sa kanya at ibinaling sa ibang direksyon ang tingin. I rubbed my hand on my chest dahil sa sobrang bilis nito. I need to restrain these feelings that are undoubtedly new to me.
Hindi sinasadyang napunta sa rear-view mirror ng kotse niya ang mga mata ko kaya nag-abot ang tingin naming dalawa. Those dark sets of deep black eyes. Nakakunot ang kilay niyang tumingin sa akin.
He then breaks the silence.
"You okay?" aniya habang nasa kalsada parin ang tingin.
I nodded at him as a response kaya hindi na siya nagsalita pa. During this time, inaliw ko na lang ang sarili sa mga bagay na nakikita ko sa labas ng kotse niya. Hinilig ko ang ulo ko sa bintana ng sasakyan niya and slowly, darkness eloped my sight as I unconsciously closed my eyelids causing me to close my eyes. Walang pasabing kinain ako ng antok.
Kahit sa panaginip ko nakikita at nararamdaman ko siya.
Ang hapdi..
Wet cotton against my wounds. Cold fingertips together with alcohol.
"You shouldn't be so defenseless when you're with me." I heard someone murmuring.
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Removing Her Facade (Editing)
General FictionSalliene Kye Diaz a woman of shattered pieces. Got adopted by her tito's family. Met this guy who'll eventually help her see things more clearly. But then the rain pours and the thunder strikes. And everything starts to unfold when these shattered p...
