Jmena heart 1:12am
"You good momma talk to me"atlas pleaded
I hadn't said more that 3 words since everything went down with the guy threatening to shoot me and atlas shooting him my body went into shock
"You ok Jmena come on you gotta talk to me"
"Atlas you shot him"
"Yeah if I didn't he could've shot you or kj"
"Is he dead?"
"No momma I didn't hit any major arteries I just had to make sure he wouldn't try no shit like that again"
"How do you know"
"Come on Jmena you seriously worried about this nigga and he tried to shoot you"
"I just don't want anyone's death on my hands"
"That nigga is alive he may be injured but he alive and you can't be giving a fuck bout people that don't give a fuck bout you"
"You promise" i sighed resting my head on his shoulder it felt like a weight was lifted off of me I wouldn't be able to live with the fact someone died because of me
Even tho the guy tried to hurt me my heart wouldn't allow me to live with the guilt of him dying
"I promise"
"I'm sorry for spacing out i was just scared"
"You coo baby shit Ian eat for a week when I seen a nigga get killed infront of me"
"Huh you've seen somebody get killed before what happened and when"
"Shit happened back when I was a jhit bout 14 one of da corner boys was stealing the boss or whatever dat nigga was money and when he came to collect his shit he shot dude like 4 times trynna set an example or some shit"
My eyes grew wide hearing the story
"What the fuck atlas was he 14 too why didn't you tell me you used to be a corner boy in your hometown"
"Nah he was one of the older niggas so he was bout 17 and Ian tell you cus dat ain't some shit I'm proud of I moved trynna get away with all of dat shit Ian wanna bring it here with me"
"I'm sorry you had to see and go through that atlas you have to open up to me about stuff like that even if it was in the past I feel like that's something I should know because I'm sure it was traumatic"
"Ion like thinking bout my past Jmena the shit happened back in the day imma leave it der"
"So selling drugs down there wasn't ok and something you wanna forget about but doing it here is ok cus what you in a new location"
Atlas stared at me before finally responding
"Youn know shit bout my past for you ta be trynna compare shit Jmena so don't say shit else about it"
"That's my point I want to know more let me in atlas I come to you about shit you should feel like you can come talk to me"
He shook his head dismissing what i just said
"Come on Let's just go ta sleep ma I was just trynna make you was straight I wasn't trynna end da night bickering witchu"
" seriously atlas you not gonna talk"
"Na ion feel like it"he shook his head and laid down
I'm not sure where the nonchalant act came from but I wasn't messing with it at all
Atlas laid on one end of the bed and I laid on the other with my back facing him
"Come on na jmena why you all the way over der"
"Goodnight atlas"I pulled more of his cover on me and closed my eyes
"We can talk bout it another time ma is dat coo with you" he grabbed my waist pulling my body onto his
"I guess" i mumble turning over facing him atlas kissed my forehead then my lips and I closed my eyes going to sleep
— Atlas Richmond 12:33pm
📍his brother house
"Dats yo girl and if you so called love her ass tell her that shit in the past and momma gone shit I'm surprised yall been together so long and yeen have ta talk bout momma n our pops"
"She asked bout em here and der but ion like thinking bout dat shit I get mad all over again"
"Well if you ain't gon tell ha fuck you want my opinion for yo big headed ass don't listen to shit nobody say"
"Imma tell her on my time" I said and Giovanni laughed
"Fuck funny nigga"I mugged
"That fall you had when you was a baby did some damage lil nigga he continued to laugh even harder but I didn't find shit funny so I continued mugging him
" bitch Ian fall as a kid cut dat shit out"
"You right momma told me she dropped you on the head my bad"
"Man stop fucking wit me"I let out a laugh thinking about my momma
This has been unfinished in my drafts since January 6th it's now February 27th 💀 I'm just giving yall something to read sorryyyyy 😬
