Haven't I Given Enough

too good or plain stupid

Jassi was on his phone scrolling through social media, he saw mi followers going down second by second, some fans were burning mi Jersey and posting that they want their captain back , people are trolling mi and hardik, some made fun of rohit situation, some 'critics' were giving 'unbiased' opinions that how it was the right decision while some were calling out the shitty behaviour.....in short social media was in havoc
            He puts his phone back on the bed and close his eyes. It is getting too much for him, he can't decide what to feel anymore, if he could he would have went for practice but his body was at his end.
                  His door opened after a knock, there stood his rohit bhaiya... He went still seeing him , rohit face was adorned by eye bags, something he rarely had , the last time he saw these eye bags were when sammy was a new born , his trance broke when he heard rohit saying
      "What, do you not want to meet me anymore?"
            He sat straight as rohit sat beside him
"You really think that bhaiya?"
          Rohit curse at his choice of words, ofcourse jassi will think like that if he said that
           "I'm kidding Jass, but why didn't you come to meet me at the breakfast"
          "I was practicing" jassi was looking at the floor intently as if the world biggest secret is about to pop of from there
       "That I heard too , why are so keen on getting injured , you know that a pacer body can handle only so much, you're my x-factor I can't afford that".
           Jassi sighs and lean towards rohit when he felt Rohit's hand ruffling his hair
          "I don't know Bhaiya, I was just trying to distract myself"
     "By hurting yourself ??"
   "No ofcourse not, I'm sorry I'll not do that again"
          They stayed silent for a moment before rohit decided to ask
        "Virat said you were too angry to talk to anyone??"
        Jassi got tensed at Rohit words, rohit understood but he didn't try changing the conversation, he can't let these things affect jassi so much so that his performance get affected
     "And I'm not sorry for that"
      "Hmm...I agree you shouldn't be sorry for expressing yourself.... but tell me jassi are you angry bcuz of the captaincy stint "
      "And why are you not Bhaiya?? "
             Rohit doesn't answer him and continues to ask him
         " Do you want captaincy that much "
     Jassi looks at him in disbelief, rohit understood that it wasn't just that
        "Do you think that lowly of me bhaiya " jassi voice broke in between
       "Ofcourse not jass, I'm asking this bcuz I know you deserve that "
   "It's not just that bhaiya...." Jassi stands from the bed and starts pacing back and forth
          "Okay first let's sit down and you tell me what's bothering you , okay?"
    Jassi sat beside Rohit and placed his head on Rohit shoulders
      "How do you do this bhaiya?"
     "What did I do ?"
     "This , being aloof, as if nothing in the world matters to you"   a sad smile streched on Rohit face
  "One does doing that when he has to look out for his special ones , Jass .... I'm sure you'll understand that once me and Virat will not be in the team "
  "You're not going anywhere " jassi hold on Rohit tightens
        "You know it doesn't work like that ...now don't act smart to me and tell me what's actually bothering you if not for your captaincy call"
          " Trust me bhaiya me not being captain is the last thing I am angry on"
       "Uhh huhh then tell me what it actually "
        "How could he do that to you bhaiya, how can the management do this to you , didn't they have a slogn 'one family '  "
   " No one did anything wrong to me Jass, I guess it was time to end "
"Bullshit, you know you are done wrong, by management and by that person too"
           "The team needed a new captain to bring new energy Jass"
   "Bhaiya please, Don't you even dare to justify this shit..... you're being too good is the reason people are taking you as dumb"
"It's not ..." Rohit starts speaking but jassi intervenes him
  "It is bhaiya, if they wanted a new captain then why not surya bhai , he has been there for quite a long time....if not him then why not me , am I not capable enough to fill your shoes?"
  Jassi looked straight into rohit eyes demanding for answer
  "Maybe they wanted a captain who could lead the team for a long time, surya age might have hindered that and Jass you're India main pace bowler they can't put you on too much pressure,  it's not about filling the shoes Jass but what if you got injured..... I'm sure they must have thought like that"

      Jassi looked at Rohit in a scandalous way questioning his sanity
  "Bhaiya do you even hear yourself, " jassi was exasperated at Rohit ,
    "surya Bhai age is nothing to be concerned of and when did age started playing a role in captaincy bhaiya and if they wanted a really young captain why not ishan, bhaiya you're grooming him for about five years now,   according to your 'logics' ain't he the perfect contender "

 .        Rohit stayed silent, he is being that too much nowadays, he knows jass points is valid but what can he even do , he sighed to himself before answering
         "I don't know Jass, you can't always know what's going on in the management mind"
      Jassi looked at him bewildered
             "Bhaiya for goodness sake it's not just management, I do not expect any type of loyalty from them after what they did with malinga and polly, but from that person, tell me bhaiya if you didn't expect better from him"

   .      Rohit was tired now , he knew Jass is right, he knew all the conspiracy theories but he choosed to turn blind eyes to them not for anyone else but for himself
         Jassi sat down on his knees and took rohit hands in his own
        "Bhaiya I'm not arguing with you, I'm just...."
                   Jassi sighs
".....I just want you to look out for yourself, I'm so done with everyone out there justifying this, I don't need you to do this, please "
              rohit looked into jassi eyes, and for a very first time in a while the brim of his eyes burned , he felt them getting moist and then he does what he does best
                     stops his feeling right there. 'for goodness sake brace yourself, he is a child who's emotionally attached to you don't use his words to play the victim' he thought to himself
             Rohit pats jassi head and smiles
         " So now you're not angry". Jass felt so done with Rohit, he knew that ro won't share his misery with them but he still held onto the little hope he got after seeing his emotional eyes,
           the feeling he got for that person after seeing rohit like this was too nasty, he hated the thought of him let alone think about meeting or talking to him, rohit can forget this but he can't
    "Jass?" Rohit Shakes him
   "Hmm ....oh yeah, I mean no I wasn't even angry to begin with"
Rohit smiles at jassi futile attempt of denying
           "Careful there Jass Virat might not agree with that "
  They both chuckled thinking about how virat will react if he saw jassi sitting with Rohit this calmly after being a walking temper for days
         "By the way get ready for a dinner, ishan and the boys has planned something name 'mi boys time'
     "Ohh and everyone agreed" jassi was bewildered thinking about this
    "You wish....it was Virat order which made them stop fighting"
     "Fair enough, and yeah I'll get ready"
     Rohit stood to leave the room when Jass hugged him unexpectedly, rohit too slowly pats his back
     "I haven't retired yet Jass" jassi ignored him and said
      "Bhaiya sometimes being too good is considered being dumb, I hope you'll start putting yourself before us "
Rohit frees himself from the hug and asks him
          "Will you like that?  If I put myself before you"
          Jassi stayed silent thinking about this and answered
"Maybe not , but I will definitely be happy for you"
          Rohit just pats jassi cheek and says before leaving
        "I do look out for myself Jass but you guys are too important for me to consider second"

A/N : tell me how's it going, weirdly enough they give me motivation to write the next part, I know I'm still lacking way too much while conveying the emotional part but be generous okay it's my first time doing this
  Also are the chapters too short??