Code: Infinity [Reboot]

Chapter 18 - Anger, Confusion and Stampede

<After a few years, the experiments done on us were slowly decreasing, making me feel happier, same might be for Darling. Our bonds have grown as time passes.>

<Then we met the other members of 10-s Team that was to be formed in the future. At that time I met a woman that I hate from heart. Her name was Kiara. How dare she make me look like a weak person in front of my Darling? I want to kill her. I do not know why but the moment she made me look like a weak person in front of Darling... an unknown feeling rose in my heart.>

<From the very start, I was good at almost everything that I wanted to put my mind to. I practiced to be stronger, learned how to read emotions, and learned new knowledge to put it to use, to make me more intelligent. But Kiara's presence changed it all.>

<She was better, faster, stronger. She was more intelligent and more battle-proficient. It made me think about the whole situation related to me.>

<It was like my whole world crumbled. When she made me feel weak... I thought about what was my worth to my Darling... I was weaker. I was not as intelligent as Kiara. I was dependent on Darling. The only thing that I was superior in was looks. Other than that... I was worthless.>

<An anger rose in my mind that made me realize that to prove my worth. I must defeat Kiara to prove my worth. She was the one who made me look useless. Even if she helped me grow and made me learn new things, the feelings of killing grew as time went on.>

<Although I did my best to suppress it, it surfaces in my mind occasionally.>

<After a few more years passed by and it was finally the time for piloting a FranXX virtually. Just the mention of the assessment made me feel happy. I have been dreaming of riding the FranXX with Darling. After all, from what I have heard, whenever two parasite rides the FranXX, they will be connected both physically and mentally.>

<And what they said was true! As soon as Darling touched the controllers, I was literally able to feel him just a step away from my mind. I was able to understand his emotions, intentions, and feelings. It was fascinating.>

<I loved the feeling. It was so addictive. I just wasn't able to get over it. I loved how he felt. I knew that I was just feeling uncomfortably possessive of him, but the feeling of being connected to him was just too good.>

<I loved the feeling whenever he got excited about thoughts of destroying his enemies. His increasing heartbeat just made mine accelerate. It was an unconscious response of my body to his. I loved how he depended on me.>

<Then came the feeling of death. Looking at the Klaxosaur mouth crushing our FranXX, it felt so scary. Really really scary. At that time, I suddenly realized that Darling was not showing any fear toward it. It made me think that I was just too scared for nothing or what.>

<Again. A show of weakness. It was just too weird. It made me feel a sense of crisis. I was weak. Too weak.>

'Weird. Although I wasn't able to feel any anomaly in her, her horns did grow a bit faster than they usually do, making me wonder what she was feeling during crisis one.'

With a more calm mind, Ryo stared at the scene. There was no point in acting panicked. However, a small fear grew in his mind as he speculated what could have led to the things that had happened till that point in time.

He knew what... No one could do this... And that worst feeling made him scared to his core. He wasn't scared of enemies with unknown powers... But what scared him was the capabilities of the enemy that he was facing had...

'I am not sure, but I know who could do this...', He wanted to run into a corner of the room and sleep till he died, as he knew what would happen.

After all, he knew what the person controlling him was capable of himself...