You unexpectedly walked into my life
I don't know why...
You choose to love me
My mind is at a mental war don't you see
Poisonous thoughts fill my mind
Just take a leap and end it all...
My thoughts start screaming
Well I start dreaming...
Of different ways to jump off the deep end...
And take a leap
This isn't fake
Don't you see I'm ready to take...
Everything I have and throw it away
Can I let the dead night
Pull me into its cold embrace?
I'm done with this never ending chase!
I can't seem to quit
I'm drowning again but it's worse this time
Cuts start to appear on my wrist and pain...
Over takes me as I look at myself with disdain
My mind is in a strife
I want to defy
Everything going on in my loud conscience...
I'm spitting nonscience
Will I ever be able to find
What it's like not to feel so small?
In my cruel mind I want to feel fine...
That is a far thought because I crossed the line
I'm sorry to have befriended...
You...and letting this relationship get so deep
I should have been absent
So your feeling wouldn't have an attachment
And you would be okay...
Not feeling sadness for a broken light
Who is dying on the inside...
But know I tried...
Even if I finally hit...
The end of my time...
Know I won't be feeling pain anymore...
Because I lost my fight in the war
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The Darkest Hours
PoetryThis is all self written poetry about when someone is at there lowest and all their thoughts are hurting them. Some of the poems have mentions of suicide and other triggering stuff like sexual assault and more... I hope you all can relate or connec...
