An attendings baby *D. Shepherd*

Missing him

Chloe sat in her car as she drove got to work. Chloe knew how hard that things were and she knew that she was trying. She was trying to find a way to pick up the pieces of her life but all that she felt was scared. She knew that she owed it to her baby to try. She knew that Derek was going to be a big part of her life either way

Chloe was scared that she was actually going to end up falling apart and she hated it. Chloe sat in her car as she pulled her red hair into a bun. She knew that she had to try and move on from the derek and Addison drama. Even though it was her mom and baby daddy and it was a mess

Chloe frowned as she looked to see addison car pull up besides her as addison stood from the car. The two of them made eye contact as addison waved to Chloe who smiled slightly. Chloe hated just how perfect addison seemed and yet she seems so imperfect and pregnant with derek shepherds baby

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Chloe walked into the crowded elevator and sighed. She knew that she had to try and put derek out of her mind

"Where's billing?" Chloe heard someone say

"The basement" she and derek said together. Chloe turned around and frowned as she saw him in the back corner

The two of them made eye contact for a moment as she turned away. It was hard for her to see him. It all felt awkward and she hated it but she knew they had to try and make it work

Chloe knew that she and derek were never awkward in the past. She rested a hand on her bump and sighed

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Chloe walked into the locker room and looked to see Madison who looked to her and smiled "are you okay" Madison asked as Chloe walked over and sat on the floor

"Okay? You want to know if I am okay. Well I met a guy and I fell in love and I started to think about forever and the future and then it all fell apart. He was married to my mom which I knows and even though that she cheated on him he choose her and he broke my heart after he left, after he started something with an intern and they are still here and she look amazing and I'm so the opposite and I just feel so annoyed oh and I'm pregnant with his baby" Chloe said as Madison pulled her into a hug and smiled

"Hormones?" Madison asked as Chloe bonded

"I'm sorry" Madison said as Chloe smiled to herself

"Don't be. You know what sucks the most. The fact that they are here and that she is and I feel as if they are rubbing it in my face I'm the only who seemed to get screwed over the most yet I am the one who got hurt the most" Chloe said as Madison smiled

"None of this is your fault" Madison said as she looked to Chloe as she sat on the floor as Chloe looked up at her and smiled. She placed a hand on her bump and smiled

"Then why do I feel as if they are taking over my life. I hate all of this" Chloe said as madisnn smiled

"I know but no matter what I'm your person and I'm here even over them. Your having a baby and he says he's there but not how he should be I'll be the baby daddy if I have too" Madison said as Chloe looked to her and laughed. Chloe knew how none of this was easy and she had to find a way to deal and she hated it

"You know what's worse I had to go through am awkward elevator ride with him and I just want to scream" Chloe said

"Wasn't your first kiss either him in one"