The Mafia nanny [✓complete]

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As they said their goodbyes and left, I couldn't help but feel a pang of guilt.

My internal turmoil was affecting not only me but those I cared about most. It was a reminder that I needed to find a resolution, for their sake as well as mine.

Luca's POV

I got into my car and started it.

I drive out of my car garage.

I could see Leah truly needed space and I'm willing to give her that.

It fucking hard to leave my feelings so anxious of her answer but I knew I had to wait.

I drive down the driveway and out the gates.

Linda was right. It's relieving to know that Leah now knows how I feel. But scary at the same time.

I don't know if she's going to accept my offer of something more between us. Or, reject my feelings.

It was only two options but both carried heavy extra responsibilities I'd need to take on.

I arrived at the company. I know I can't be here long. I have a meeting I'm at 10 am. I looked at my watch.

I entered my private elevator from my private parking.

Once the doors dinged open on my office floor, Linda stood right there.

"Hello brother" she gave a small wave. "Good morning," I said whilst taking a seat.

"So now I'm going to give a summary of the meeting. If you dare not pay attention I promise you'll regret it" she warned.

I knew well enough that Linda never joked about her warnings so I preferred to listen to her now.

"Okay," I surrendered now. She started. To be honest I'm unsure about my attention levels right now but I'll try my best.

She started. Linda isn't the type of person you just itch to say that you're tired of listening to or just suck it up to keep your head on your body tonight.

The one reason she's bad at summaries is that she adds on her own comments making it twice as long as the meeting.

I don't really want to tell Linda yet and every moment that passed it made my reason bigger not to tell her about what I told Leah.

I didn't know how long I'd have to wait for Leah's answer, but I was willing to wait.

Leah's POV

Days turned into a week, and I couldn't escape the truth any longer.

I had to face Luca, to talk about us, about my feelings, and ask about where we stood.

But you're not

Exactly! I just don't know what to say.

Pacing back and forth in my room, I contemplated what I should say, but every idea sounded either too sad, too happy, too weird, awkward or simply not enough.

My mind was a chaotic whirlwind of emotions, each one pulling me in a different direction.

Just tell him

That's easy for you to say, you just stay in my head, I'll have to face him, not you.

One moment, I wanted to pour my heart out to him, to tell him how I truly felt.

The next, I feared that doing so would push him away or make things awkward between us.

It was a relentless battle inside my head.

Sitting down on the edge of my bed, I buried my face in my hands, feeling utterly lost.

The weight of uncertainty pressed down on my shoulders, making it hard to breathe.

I knew I couldn't keep avoiding Luca forever.

The kids were beginning to notice, and I couldn't let my own indecision disrupt their lives any further.

Look, when Luca told you he liked you he just said 'I honestly like you', so all you have to say is the same. Just with a 'too' at the end

Really?

Yeah, then you list your fears. He listens. And you'll get comfortable then you guys reach a conclusion

...I'm not sure.

Oh please, It's a great plan! Better than yours. Then you'll be happy, he'll be happy, I'LL BE HAPPY. What could be better?

You really love yourself a lot, don't you?

Of course, I'm a proud self-centred bitch that you're incapable of doing

I'd take that back before I kill you for saying that!

Fine, fine! I'll fuck with you. Calm down. Chill girlie

Ok

But what Lee said made sense.

Obviously!

Shut up!

Ok, I'll chill

It was true. I could just say the same thing Luca said.

Just remembering it made my cheeks burn. UGH!

How am I supposed to say it if just thinking of the way he said it makes me feel like an overripe tomato that's on the fucking verge of exploding!?

How will I do this?

When will I say it?

I've thought about it. I still had doubts though.

I knew accepting to be something more with Luca would mean I'd not only take a position as a partner but also mother.

Like, I'm great with kids, especially the Romano kids that I've grown attached to. But was I generally ready to be a mother?

I don't mind taking care of them. But the role of a mother is something way different.

I let out a shaky breath.

How will I be a mother?

Will I be a good one?

So many things came with being with Luca. But I realise that I love him so much I generally don't mind all this.

Am I ready?

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Is she ready? How do you think the convo between Luca and Leah will be?

My school is starting next week tuesday😭😭 but I'll be fine😮‍💨

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~Xyclonia