A Piece of Myself

Relationship

11:04 am

Relationship

It's already 1 in the midnight waiting for his reply. Yes, I am already taken by this man.

He is a clingy, moody man. Seryoso, okay naman kasi kami kanina tapos maya-maya mag-aaway na naman kami.
Sinusuyo ko siya pero ayaw niya, I'm always thinking na baka mas magalit pa siya sa'kin kapag pinilit ko pang makipag-ayos kaya minsan hinahayaan ko na lang muna siya.

Okay I know na dapat hindi pero there's a part of me na gusto na lang siyang hayaan para hindi na mas lalong lumala ang away namin.

I'm letting someone dahil ayokong mamilit. Everyone has their own toxic traits and this is mine.

I'm trying to fix that part of myself kahit nahihirapan ako.

Of course hindi ako gan'yan dati not until may mga taong nakapagpabago sa akin.
I have a trust issues na minsan nakakasama na rin. I am an overthinker too at minsan kung ano-ano naiisip ko.

Pero kahit ni-isang beses, hindi ko sinabi iyon sa kaniya.

Being an overthinker is not easy, maraming what ifs sa isip namin and we can't help but think of it. Kahit sabihin ng iba na "h'wag ka nang mag-overthink" "h'wag mo na isipin 'yon"

It's not easy for us overthinkers na gawin ang mga sinasabi niyo. Maglalakbay agad ang utak namin kahit ayaw namin.

I'm an overthinker but he can handle me. For instance, he wants to have fun with his boys, he's telling me in advance that there are no girls in there. Even if hindi niya sabihin, papayagan ko siya kasi it's his time with his tropas. May mga babae kasi na ayaw payagan ang partner nila na makihalubilo sa tropa niya.

But I can't judge their situation too easily dahil lahat may reasons.

(ang iba wala kagaya ng mga cheater, kimi)

Now, I'm wondering, what the hell is true love? Some define it as a wonderful feeling but for me it's not just a feeling. It's a part of my life. It contains every emotions;sadness, happiness, mad and all. Seeing someone that you love is happy on their own without you, magiging masaya ka na lang din para sa kaniya. Na kahit masakit pa ito para sa'yo, as long as he/she is okay and happy, okay at masaya ka na rin para sa kaniya.

That's the true love for me. Kahit anong ikasasakit mo, para basta para sa kaniya okay lang.

Love is complicated but we always find ways to comprehend it.

Iba't iba ang opinion natin when it comes sa love. Ikaw? anong definition mo ng love?

— buwan